note to self.
it's hitting me. the pressure's on now. it maybe have always been on but now im feeling the squeeze and it's starting to make me think. not just think, but think to the point where all your thoughts erase time and blot out reality because you have more thoughts to think about than the stars of the universe. i know what i want, and i know it's worth it, but i can never find myself in the moment. and maybe there never will be a right moment, but there will always be moments, so just fucking pick one erik. my mind is conflicted. choose wisely, but choose quickly. people say timing is everything. but maybe it's not timing, but just time in general that is everything. time is everything. and there's only so much of it you can waste until it comes down to those few crucial seconds/minutes/hours/days/weeks/months/years where you come to realize that everything you wanted was in front of you or that procrastination has boxed you into a corner that you now have to fight your way out of. time is against me. it's like walking against a current or on a treadmill, im getting nowhere fast. and im getting tired. but i chose this road for a reason. i didnt choose it to give up, and not find out what's at the end of it. no one reads a book just to stop halfway. and that's how i live my life, i dont believe in stopping halfway and quitting. i'll meet people halfway and go the rest with your company. i dont mind walking alone, but it'd just be nice to have someone by your side.
just do yourself a favor erik. step it up. because you know what you want in life, and what you're heart desires. so chase your dreams and catch them by any means necessary. be real. and be realistic. grow but never forget who you are, or where you've planted your feet. people come and go but but they only leave forever if you let them. some people will change, most won't. and usually it's for the best. you know that every road you choose is a difficult one, but that's just who you are. you never choose the easy way, and you only settle for the best. just dont let the best pass you up.
just do yourself a favor erik. step it up. because you know what you want in life, and what you're heart desires. so chase your dreams and catch them by any means necessary. be real. and be realistic. grow but never forget who you are, or where you've planted your feet. people come and go but but they only leave forever if you let them. some people will change, most won't. and usually it's for the best. you know that every road you choose is a difficult one, but that's just who you are. you never choose the easy way, and you only settle for the best. just dont let the best pass you up.