Quickens your heart beat...Beats you straight into the ground.
And for this announcement, I'm going to make the font obnoxiously big! XD
MUCH THANKS TO GRIZZY FOR CHANGING THIS GOD DAMN LAYOUT!
Sunday's post:
I'm on fire, and now, I think I'm ready to bust a move.
Man, there's been so much crap going on, I felt like everything was getting out of control. I know that this probably isn't going to happen and it's pointless to say it, but now that it's a new year, I think I'm going to try harder. Not only with my grades, but with everything. I also want to lose more than five pounds before my birthday...Which is in twenty days! I can't wait!
As for more bad news, when Michael gets out of St. Calres, he's going to move back to Bloomfield with his uncle. I guess I'm angry, but I do understand where his "grandparents" are coming from. I won't be able to see him very much, though. -sigh-
Gabbie's gonna be here in like...Five minutes. We're gonna go see Spanglish at 4:00PM. I'm so excited! I've wanted to see it since I saw the first preview for it...Which I think was when we went to go see The Grudge. Ha ha, what a silly movie with little naked boys in it.
Surprisingly, things with my mom have been pretty good. I'm enjoying my freedom and peace inside and outside the house, but I'm not really looking forward to when everything goes downhill again. And you know it'll happen. It always does. -sigh- I guess that's what life is. A rollercoaster; emotionaly, physically, whatever. Meh. I guess I'm used to it by now.
I've got SOOOOO many pictures I need to post. I don't have enough time to post them today, though. Maybe, if I remember my camera, I'll post them this coming Wednsday. Ugh. And that reminds me-we go back to school tomorrow. I know I said I wanna try harder, but just thinking about it makes me say in my head, "No." I'm kind of tempted to lock myself in a little room. Ha ha. Then, I'd be really eMo! XXXDDD
Anyway...Gabbie should be here soon, so...Yeah. I guess you'll hear from my Wednsday!
Today's post:
I got the messege long before you said you knew there was no chance of us at all.
Home sick with nothing to do.
I was thinking about going to school, but I feel so zapped of energy and everything hurts. -sigh- No fun. No fun at all. My mom said that I can go to Jessica's to paint later, though. That makes me a little happier. ^_^
Yesterday was...Eeeergh. Everyone was having a good day, and I was standing by it all like...Moop. I don't even know why. I wore the skirt I made and a lot of people seemed to like it, though. That gave me a little boost! But then, after school, I went up to Julia and asked her if she was gonna walk home with me and she was like, "Oh...I'm going to Hannah's to make brownies and sushi!" Lately, I've been feeling like no one wants me around. -sigh- You guys, I'm a reject.
I guess all of this started over the break. I only had plans 'cause I called people since no one called me.
I guess I got used to everyone calling me and inviting me places. Now...I'm just like...Oh. In a way, I guess that's another reason I didn't wanna go to school. I half really do feel sick and half feel too "not myself" to go. When Sarah came up to me and said, "Yes! Today is an amazing day! For once, everything is going right!" I just kinda stood there like...That's nice...Hoo...Ray...?
Even though this is gonna sound eMo, I could really give less of a shit. I really want to just dissapear. Maybe, if I get away from everything for a little, I'll come back to the way I used to be. -sigh- For now, I'll just sit back and wait for my salvation.
I guess that's the end of my ranting...Oh...And Danielle...WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?!
XXXDDD