if only 9 days and counting

[barala]

If only I could take the words back
I was half awake
when they came out
and I was hurting

I've hurt before
but this time
of  year hits
like nothing before

passage of time
does NOTHING
to ease
the ache
of the loss

and though
the shock
has worn off
the ache
is ever present

i still
reach out
at 3 a.m.
grasping at air
where you
once were

and tears come
unabated

An ocean
isn't enough

bas