Anxiety Shmanxiety
New Years resolutions abound!
I am going to stop:
1) Talking about work: If it is my fate to be stuck in this limbo between being released, being moved to another department, or let go altogether then I will practice the saintly art of patience to the point that buddhist monks would be jealous of.
2) Talking about being afraid of my relationship with J. Most of you have been spared from this, in fact, all of you have except for J. The fact is that talking about it only makes my anxiety worsen and the only way to move past it is to literally MOVE past it. So now comes the task of channeling the anxiety into something else and reiterating to myself that I cannot predict the future, nor am I meant to follow the fate of my parents of my friends, nor is there something wrong with me for not doing so. Is it so wrong to have a mid-life crisis at 25? (well, nearly so)
I am going to start:
1) Well continue going to the gym. I got in a mini-workout a few days ago and it felt really good. I was moving I was listening to music I liked and I was motivated to push myself. Unfortunately walking home with a damp head in freezing weather was not conducive to staying healthy. I think I have a cold now.
2) Writing more poetry. This has got to start. The Soundry has poetry workshops where I can at least go and explore what other people write.
I am going to stop:
1) Talking about work: If it is my fate to be stuck in this limbo between being released, being moved to another department, or let go altogether then I will practice the saintly art of patience to the point that buddhist monks would be jealous of.
2) Talking about being afraid of my relationship with J. Most of you have been spared from this, in fact, all of you have except for J. The fact is that talking about it only makes my anxiety worsen and the only way to move past it is to literally MOVE past it. So now comes the task of channeling the anxiety into something else and reiterating to myself that I cannot predict the future, nor am I meant to follow the fate of my parents of my friends, nor is there something wrong with me for not doing so. Is it so wrong to have a mid-life crisis at 25? (well, nearly so)
I am going to start:
1) Well continue going to the gym. I got in a mini-workout a few days ago and it felt really good. I was moving I was listening to music I liked and I was motivated to push myself. Unfortunately walking home with a damp head in freezing weather was not conducive to staying healthy. I think I have a cold now.
2) Writing more poetry. This has got to start. The Soundry has poetry workshops where I can at least go and explore what other people write.