You don't know what you've got 'til it's gone...
I almost forgot about my lj. But I guess I have a reason to update it now..
Ever since 2008 started, nothing is the way that it used to be. My mom is never home, she basically doesn't live here anymore. She hasn't slept at home for about 2 months, and I only get to see her for like an hour a week or less. My brother is also rarely here. So I feel like this house is just.. mine. Which isn't as good as it sounds. It's really depressing here. I barely had a family in the first place and now i'm totally abandoned. I know, people keep telling me "you're an adult now", but I wish I was treated more like one so that I could have been better prepared to deal with the way things are now. Ugh... My room is re-arranged and the computer is in my room now, which I don't really like, because I have trouble adjusting to it. I haven't seen any of my gymnastics friends since I came home from Austria, and I probably won't see them again. Not together at least... and not for a longg time either. So far 2008 feels horribly empty and it's really hard to adjust to. There's nothing fun or exciting in my life, I haven't even had a crush on anyone for months. Well, not a REAL crush.. lol
I'm also not looking forward to Valentine's day. I've never been with anyone for Valentine's day in my life. That's probably why I hate it.. But I'm going to New York with Cayla on February.16th until the 23rd. It should be an adventure. But i'm still in desperate need of a miracle... and I know that I need to make some huge changes and decisions for anything to improve.
I need a hug and some tea......
Ever since 2008 started, nothing is the way that it used to be. My mom is never home, she basically doesn't live here anymore. She hasn't slept at home for about 2 months, and I only get to see her for like an hour a week or less. My brother is also rarely here. So I feel like this house is just.. mine. Which isn't as good as it sounds. It's really depressing here. I barely had a family in the first place and now i'm totally abandoned. I know, people keep telling me "you're an adult now", but I wish I was treated more like one so that I could have been better prepared to deal with the way things are now. Ugh... My room is re-arranged and the computer is in my room now, which I don't really like, because I have trouble adjusting to it. I haven't seen any of my gymnastics friends since I came home from Austria, and I probably won't see them again. Not together at least... and not for a longg time either. So far 2008 feels horribly empty and it's really hard to adjust to. There's nothing fun or exciting in my life, I haven't even had a crush on anyone for months. Well, not a REAL crush.. lol
I'm also not looking forward to Valentine's day. I've never been with anyone for Valentine's day in my life. That's probably why I hate it.. But I'm going to New York with Cayla on February.16th until the 23rd. It should be an adventure. But i'm still in desperate need of a miracle... and I know that I need to make some huge changes and decisions for anything to improve.
I need a hug and some tea......