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the last thing i want is to stay this alive for the rest of my god damn life.
i want to some day, culminate a lifetimes worth of moments into a single reflection and on that reflection say; "this was a perfectly fine novelty- i experienced a great deal which no one has before- i stored all my interpretations in memory- those memories were projected back by persona into my own experience of life; there was nothing else for me to do with them." (or something similar by whatever words seem appropriate...) "... i have flapped my wings; i have flown- i shared my life with my brothers and sisters, i sowed what i never intended to reap, i did my work among the living. now it is time to put away novelty, to put away the toy i have outgrown, and with decorum; finish this... this was all just fucking novelty, the object was attained- there is nothing else to do.
In multitude- I have found peace."
i want to feel satisfied and be, finally, done- with all of it- i want to say, "i have found peace", and mean it- it was my pleasure to sojourn and express, i wont lie. i will and have fought with my brothers and sisters against hypocrisy and tyranny in the guise of monotony and tedium-
i worked a great make believe and i called a few pounds of flesh 'Me' and i fulfilled the law of my natures; there is nothing else for me to do but play make believe more and confound the sham.- i want to be honest and with my last breath. MY LIFE MY ACT. a WHOLE life finished and complete.
"Cursum perficio"
seriously all this relativist bullshit of too much passion or too much emotion or too much of anything is a failing of balance... thats such a fucking lie. if you live; you have either something to work on or your not human- no work is done with a counter balance. once you push the rock a little further you dont let it roll back down or you never graduated past the animal. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS TOO MUCH.
the truth is there is no reward- no retirement, nothing to look forward to attaining in life- there is no such thing as nirvana; its as real as Heaven or the Garden- there is only more life and in life there is only suffering or work- rejoice and die. thats enough for me. cursum perficio.
i want to some day, culminate a lifetimes worth of moments into a single reflection and on that reflection say; "this was a perfectly fine novelty- i experienced a great deal which no one has before- i stored all my interpretations in memory- those memories were projected back by persona into my own experience of life; there was nothing else for me to do with them." (or something similar by whatever words seem appropriate...) "... i have flapped my wings; i have flown- i shared my life with my brothers and sisters, i sowed what i never intended to reap, i did my work among the living. now it is time to put away novelty, to put away the toy i have outgrown, and with decorum; finish this... this was all just fucking novelty, the object was attained- there is nothing else to do.
In multitude- I have found peace."
i want to feel satisfied and be, finally, done- with all of it- i want to say, "i have found peace", and mean it- it was my pleasure to sojourn and express, i wont lie. i will and have fought with my brothers and sisters against hypocrisy and tyranny in the guise of monotony and tedium-
i worked a great make believe and i called a few pounds of flesh 'Me' and i fulfilled the law of my natures; there is nothing else for me to do but play make believe more and confound the sham.- i want to be honest and with my last breath. MY LIFE MY ACT. a WHOLE life finished and complete.
"Cursum perficio"
seriously all this relativist bullshit of too much passion or too much emotion or too much of anything is a failing of balance... thats such a fucking lie. if you live; you have either something to work on or your not human- no work is done with a counter balance. once you push the rock a little further you dont let it roll back down or you never graduated past the animal. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS TOO MUCH.
the truth is there is no reward- no retirement, nothing to look forward to attaining in life- there is no such thing as nirvana; its as real as Heaven or the Garden- there is only more life and in life there is only suffering or work- rejoice and die. thats enough for me. cursum perficio.