oh boring~
today's celebration is pretty much a failure i guess. maybe due to a few reasons which is why this gathering was a failure too. even the gambling this year was cutted down by alot i guess.
1. chinese new year is getting more and more out of age for us.
2. the people are getting more and more bored doing the same thing again.
3. im much more quiet compared to other years. maybe people got affected by it anyways. not being myself today.
actually truthfully today for a brief moment, i felt that i dont belong there anymore and i so feel like leaving already. lucky wankian they all came after awhile and everything was feeling so much better. win 80 today, which covered my losses yesterday and making a small winning of 30bucks for this new year. but everything is not ending here!
still gonna have celebration w T19 and my army friends. maybe i should make an effort to go contact my poly classmates and go for a gathering someday during cny before it ends. and hopefully its gonna be more fun den the past few celebrations.
i so dont feel like booking in already.
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i sort of have had a plan for my future. because everyone that sees me during chinese new year is asking me the same thing over and over again. and im really getting alil uneasy and unsure. thats why a plan is needed.
usually the conversation will goes like that.
3000people: "what you doing now? army finished already? what you gonna do after your army?"
me: smile and say "this sept finally finished w army. i really not sure what i want to do after that tho"
3000people: "huh? why you haven start thinking? better to continue your studies. what course you want to take?"
me: "i really not sure cos im not interested in the field that i studied. so yaaa, still deciding, but shd be studying."
***** den the 3000people will tell me what im suppose to do, what i can do, what i should do *****
me: "hmmmmmm......... hmm........." and silence after that.
and anyway the rough plan is to go get a insurance certificate and maybe eventually a diploma or higher, and in the mean time, since im not needed in a school to school, its all self-study, i can take up another part time diploma or something like culinary or fashion design or whatever. and ill do everything that is said in a short span of 3-4years.
alritee, enuff for the day. goodnite!
maybe it might never be the same.