Wrong. So wrong, a billion times wrong!
GOD.
Please world, just go away. I know I screwed up. I really, really know it. And I would be hurting enough having lost two boys I love even without you turning against me. I didn't need Rai's friends coming after me; I didn't need Larry's friends coming after me.
How could they possibly think I didn't care about Rai or Larry!? How could anybody think that!? I wouldn't have done any of this if I hadn't cared! I would have broken up with Rai straight away without giving him any option because I wouldn't have cared how much it was going to hurt him; I could have ranted about one to the other to try and feed their jealousies and make them work harder; I could have just lied to them both! If I didn't care this would have been so much easier! If I didn't care it wouldn't hurt so badly! Damnit, I wasn't in this situation because I thought I deserved them; I wanted them. I loved them!
...Eugh...
Igi-kun, you're so wrong. TK, you are SO wrong.
...At least Larry and Rai understand that I love them. They're the only ones who understand and believe me.
I love them both. And I'm sorry for what I've done. And I wish I could just be friends with them, nice and easy, but it's not that easy. I know it's not. I know I hurt them. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. A million times I'm sorry, and I wish I'd done something different.
I can't change what I did... just- let me move on, okay?
Please world, just go away. I know I screwed up. I really, really know it. And I would be hurting enough having lost two boys I love even without you turning against me. I didn't need Rai's friends coming after me; I didn't need Larry's friends coming after me.
How could they possibly think I didn't care about Rai or Larry!? How could anybody think that!? I wouldn't have done any of this if I hadn't cared! I would have broken up with Rai straight away without giving him any option because I wouldn't have cared how much it was going to hurt him; I could have ranted about one to the other to try and feed their jealousies and make them work harder; I could have just lied to them both! If I didn't care this would have been so much easier! If I didn't care it wouldn't hurt so badly! Damnit, I wasn't in this situation because I thought I deserved them; I wanted them. I loved them!
...Eugh...
Igi-kun, you're so wrong. TK, you are SO wrong.
...At least Larry and Rai understand that I love them. They're the only ones who understand and believe me.
I love them both. And I'm sorry for what I've done. And I wish I could just be friends with them, nice and easy, but it's not that easy. I know it's not. I know I hurt them. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. A million times I'm sorry, and I wish I'd done something different.
I can't change what I did... just- let me move on, okay?