ugh
I don't post often, because...well...life is usually normal. Happy, but nothing exciting. The only exciting things are usually bad and to post only bad makes my friends think that my life sucks. It doesn't...but today does. I had to tell my girlie that her dog died. Doggie lives at Gramma's, and she's going over there tomorrow. I thought she should know before she goes over there. Can we say total breakdown...3 times so far. She understands death way too much for a 4 year old. I told her that the dr. couldn't make doggie's sickness go away and Girlie started screaming that she would never see Angie (doggie) again and she wanted her back. She didn't want me to even be near her because I gave the bad news. After the 3rd breakdown, I was hugging her and asking her if there was anything I could do for her. She said, " I don't think you are tall enough to get her and bring her back." Broke my heart all over again. Not that I want to see heaven anytime soon, if I could, I would go get Angie and bring her back. I never really liked the dog, but I'd do anything for my hurting girl right now. There is nothing worse than feeling helpless when all you want to do is to take away someone's pain.