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Dear Meg,
To answer your question, what I knew, what I know, was how I felt when Loren first told us about Fionavar, and then took us there. Or maybe, more importantly, when Ysanne recognized me. Or maybe any of a number of things that happened then which changed the world for me, but those are the ones that first come to mind.
It felt as though everything in the world was different, and at the same time more like I myself was different in a world that was the same, when really the biggest change was that I knew something more than I had before. I didn't know how to deal with it, at first; all I knew was that I had to, somehow. I had to find a way.
What I thought before was that you'd want, or need, the same sort of things I did, the same kind of space that helped me figure out what to do with... well, with everything, I guess, as much as anyone ever could. Time to think it all over; time to come to terms. That's why I left you alone. Maybe I was wrong to do that; these days, I think I probably was. And I'm sorry for making that mistake, more than I can ever say.
Love,
Kim
To answer your question, what I knew, what I know, was how I felt when Loren first told us about Fionavar, and then took us there. Or maybe, more importantly, when Ysanne recognized me. Or maybe any of a number of things that happened then which changed the world for me, but those are the ones that first come to mind.
It felt as though everything in the world was different, and at the same time more like I myself was different in a world that was the same, when really the biggest change was that I knew something more than I had before. I didn't know how to deal with it, at first; all I knew was that I had to, somehow. I had to find a way.
What I thought before was that you'd want, or need, the same sort of things I did, the same kind of space that helped me figure out what to do with... well, with everything, I guess, as much as anyone ever could. Time to think it all over; time to come to terms. That's why I left you alone. Maybe I was wrong to do that; these days, I think I probably was. And I'm sorry for making that mistake, more than I can ever say.
Love,
Kim