Fear and Loathing on New Year's
i can sitll hear the muffled thuds of fireworks bursting over a battlefield that i don't want to be in. who was i at war with? was it myself?
it was new year's; that god-forsaken baccharous celebration of a "new birth" and "optimisim" to help bring in another miserable year of death and suffering. my heart felt as cold and hollow as that goddamn ball in times square. i confess that i would've died for someone to hold, but it seems those that would've held me, made me want to die. The Same Old Shit.
i am the proverbial "gordian knot"-- the puzzle that no one can solve. i just want to be solved. this year shall continue on just like the last one--with me bashing my head against the brick wall.
it was new year's; that god-forsaken baccharous celebration of a "new birth" and "optimisim" to help bring in another miserable year of death and suffering. my heart felt as cold and hollow as that goddamn ball in times square. i confess that i would've died for someone to hold, but it seems those that would've held me, made me want to die. The Same Old Shit.
i am the proverbial "gordian knot"-- the puzzle that no one can solve. i just want to be solved. this year shall continue on just like the last one--with me bashing my head against the brick wall.