tonights feelings
hey guys,
jsut wanted to write a short thing. its not gonna be too long, but i have a lot on my mind. its late and i am having a fwew drinks with some friends. its about 95 degrees outside and its burning hot. and everybodys in the pool. Jess threw me in fully clothed. that was kinda fun. and then mike showed up and meag and dan. dont get me wrong i love them all but, when they all get together, they break off into their little love groups. meag and dan, mike and amy, jess and katrina.... and then theres me. yeah so, ok, i can understand that everybody wants to have some fun with the person that they like, well guess what??? what about me??? i broke up with matt for a reason, and that was to find someone here that i liked. well its been 6 months. there have been people that i like, and then they like me too.... and then ultimately, i fuck up. they get pissed and then it starts all over again. i think have to go and find someone new that i like and start the process again. well you know, its get a bit old. why cant i jsut find someone, and no fuck up for once?? i dont understand. its been fum staying here at jessis' but listening to her having sex everynight and then turning over and realizing that i have no one, yeah, thats a bit much. jess keeps saying that she doesnt want katrina, and all this other shit, oh but the sex is great. well fuck that you can have a friend with benefits... right? why cant jess jsut say fuck it and dunp katrina... huh??? yeah so thats a big thing on my mind. i guess ill go... cuz katrina is here and i dont want here reading this. or anyone else that is in this house to for that matter. so i will update again tomm when i know that everybody that nobody that it can hurt read this. so for now, good night and i will talk to you all in the morning.
jsut wanted to write a short thing. its not gonna be too long, but i have a lot on my mind. its late and i am having a fwew drinks with some friends. its about 95 degrees outside and its burning hot. and everybodys in the pool. Jess threw me in fully clothed. that was kinda fun. and then mike showed up and meag and dan. dont get me wrong i love them all but, when they all get together, they break off into their little love groups. meag and dan, mike and amy, jess and katrina.... and then theres me. yeah so, ok, i can understand that everybody wants to have some fun with the person that they like, well guess what??? what about me??? i broke up with matt for a reason, and that was to find someone here that i liked. well its been 6 months. there have been people that i like, and then they like me too.... and then ultimately, i fuck up. they get pissed and then it starts all over again. i think have to go and find someone new that i like and start the process again. well you know, its get a bit old. why cant i jsut find someone, and no fuck up for once?? i dont understand. its been fum staying here at jessis' but listening to her having sex everynight and then turning over and realizing that i have no one, yeah, thats a bit much. jess keeps saying that she doesnt want katrina, and all this other shit, oh but the sex is great. well fuck that you can have a friend with benefits... right? why cant jess jsut say fuck it and dunp katrina... huh??? yeah so thats a big thing on my mind. i guess ill go... cuz katrina is here and i dont want here reading this. or anyone else that is in this house to for that matter. so i will update again tomm when i know that everybody that nobody that it can hurt read this. so for now, good night and i will talk to you all in the morning.