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My dear,
i don't want you to leave. college is approaching, adn it seems to me like we are drifting apart. maye that is a good thing. maybe that is what we need to do. But, i can't stand thinking about us being so far apart!! You mean everything to me. You have been there for me when I needed you. You have seen me cry, and I have seen you cry. We have shared some great laughter, and made some wonderful memories. You have also been there for me, when things suck. when I don't think I can face the day, i look to you. and you give me encouragement, inspiration, hope. You have amazed me and challenged me in ways I did not know were possible. You know more about me then anyone, and yet, you still love me.. Not expecting me to change, but loving me for who I am, seeing me as who I am becomming, who I ahve been, adn who I am. We have shared our fights, but they have made our friendship stronger, and I have come to relize what you mean to me. You have been my best friend.
It seems like infinity that you are going away to. So far. farther than across town, or jsut down the street. For the first time in so many years, we will not be able to see eachother at the very least every week. I will not be able to come to you if I need you. and, worse yet, I will not be able to come to you, to hug you adn love you when you are going through a rough time. Sure, we will be able to call and e-mail, but somehow, it is not the same.
That scares me. It scares me so much. You mean so much to me, and to think that, for the rest of our lives, we may not be friends... that breaks my heart. that makes me cry at night, and wish we never have to say goodbye. It hurts me that you will go to college and be succesful, and possiably forget about me. It hurts me to think of your wedding day, when we will no longer be able to be friends as we are now, becasue you will have a new best friend. It hurts me to grow up. Yet, to grow up with you was such a priviledge. You are my best friend. years from now, i will show pictures of you to my children and they will ask questions and i will tell them stories of all the silly things we have done together. And next year, I will take a framed picture of you and I to collge and set it up so that I can have strength ever day knowing that I had such a good friend. Knowing that you are doing something amazing with you life. Everyone wll ask who you are, and I will be able to brag about you, telling them how luckey I am to have you in my life.
You will always hold my heart. Not even in a romantic way, but as the sibling that you are to me. No friend will ever touch me in such a profound way, or see me through so many events. No other friend will know that I am hurting with one quick glance, and know exactly when to hug me, when to tlak, and when to just et it be. No other friend will I hug and it just be okay. No other friend will I trust as much. You are my onve-in-a-lifetime friend. and I know that we will be friends, if only the kinds of friends that recieve christmas cards only all year long, forever. and in Heaven, we will dance for eternaty together, worshiping the only one that really matters... the one who you have challenged me to draw closer to and set an example of for me. God himself. i am forever greatful for everything he has given me.
For you I am truley greatful.
don't ask.. I just started writing... it means something to me.
i don't want you to leave. college is approaching, adn it seems to me like we are drifting apart. maye that is a good thing. maybe that is what we need to do. But, i can't stand thinking about us being so far apart!! You mean everything to me. You have been there for me when I needed you. You have seen me cry, and I have seen you cry. We have shared some great laughter, and made some wonderful memories. You have also been there for me, when things suck. when I don't think I can face the day, i look to you. and you give me encouragement, inspiration, hope. You have amazed me and challenged me in ways I did not know were possible. You know more about me then anyone, and yet, you still love me.. Not expecting me to change, but loving me for who I am, seeing me as who I am becomming, who I ahve been, adn who I am. We have shared our fights, but they have made our friendship stronger, and I have come to relize what you mean to me. You have been my best friend.
It seems like infinity that you are going away to. So far. farther than across town, or jsut down the street. For the first time in so many years, we will not be able to see eachother at the very least every week. I will not be able to come to you if I need you. and, worse yet, I will not be able to come to you, to hug you adn love you when you are going through a rough time. Sure, we will be able to call and e-mail, but somehow, it is not the same.
That scares me. It scares me so much. You mean so much to me, and to think that, for the rest of our lives, we may not be friends... that breaks my heart. that makes me cry at night, and wish we never have to say goodbye. It hurts me that you will go to college and be succesful, and possiably forget about me. It hurts me to think of your wedding day, when we will no longer be able to be friends as we are now, becasue you will have a new best friend. It hurts me to grow up. Yet, to grow up with you was such a priviledge. You are my best friend. years from now, i will show pictures of you to my children and they will ask questions and i will tell them stories of all the silly things we have done together. And next year, I will take a framed picture of you and I to collge and set it up so that I can have strength ever day knowing that I had such a good friend. Knowing that you are doing something amazing with you life. Everyone wll ask who you are, and I will be able to brag about you, telling them how luckey I am to have you in my life.
You will always hold my heart. Not even in a romantic way, but as the sibling that you are to me. No friend will ever touch me in such a profound way, or see me through so many events. No other friend will know that I am hurting with one quick glance, and know exactly when to hug me, when to tlak, and when to just et it be. No other friend will I hug and it just be okay. No other friend will I trust as much. You are my onve-in-a-lifetime friend. and I know that we will be friends, if only the kinds of friends that recieve christmas cards only all year long, forever. and in Heaven, we will dance for eternaty together, worshiping the only one that really matters... the one who you have challenged me to draw closer to and set an example of for me. God himself. i am forever greatful for everything he has given me.
For you I am truley greatful.
don't ask.. I just started writing... it means something to me.