(( good morning ))
welp i woke up this morning at 4*45. i went to go in the shower and right after i got all wet my power went out for like 3 min so i showered in PITCH BLACKNESS.i was scared, i felt like sum1 was in the bathroom with me, i started to worry my self that like some rapist got in and was gunnah rape me or sumthing. yah me and my WILD imagination. ne ways i showered and got dressed and now im wating on amber to pick me up.today im wearing this jean skirt with a black west coast choppers shirt and my rings,eyeliner,and this black guess braclet and my express belt. its all black. thats how i feel today. my outfits are always different depending on my moods.some times bright and happy.or short and skanky or cute and preppy and today is black and mean/sad. i guess thats how it goes.yuh know what -- who wud think that ne one could talk so much about what someone wears? WELL I SHURE AS HELL CAN. i can talk ALOT about ne thing.i hope today is a good + eventful day. i have a health test but i didnt study. HOW THE HELL DO YOU STUDY HEALTH?!! it is healthy to eat right meals.work out. have good friends. avoid drugs and alchol and not have un protected sex. basically be a - -P R I C K - - well i guess im not very healthy now am i? =p good thing im in that class, maybe ill change into wonder girl becuase now i know all about the food pyramid and life and the affects of drugs.=) HAHAHA yah right. that class pisses me off -- to me its completely pointless im mean like HELLO no matter what you tell these teenage kids about drugs and sex were still gonah do em. were in high school if we dont do it now then well to it when were older and then well be really fucked up coz we wont be abe to work or shit coz well all be high. i dano. nvm.lol yuh. well im bored but i have to wait till 6*45 for miss amber to wake me up and theres no way in hell i can go back to bed. ive been thinking alot latley. i kinda miss josh. i dont know why. we never really hung out alot. but i see him and i dont talk to him ne more and it bugs the heck out of me. maybe well actually talk today. i like austin. duh but i dont know whats going on with us. he wants to take things "slow" and talk and start over with being friends and everything then work up to a relationship. gosh this is hard. there are ALOT of things running through my mind right now. theyre all mainly abut guys. go firgure right. i dont think about jon or george or tom ne more. whenever i pictured my self with a guy it was always one of them . its not ne more. thank god im soo over the wating and shit. none of them never actually liked me ne ways. i guess u just cant make things happen. tom is a good example i liked him for what A YEAR?! yuh sumwhere around there. and i guess me and RJ are just friends too and i dont know abut chris. but w*e. there are a few un-named guys who ive been talking to lately who are really sweet. well maybe 4 or 5 and i know for a fact these guys dont just want a piece of ass becuase well. I JUST KNOW. =) yup things are a'changin.22 minutes till my ride comes. seems like forever. im actuallly lookin forward to school today. possibly coz i feel pretty cool in this whole black outfit. i wondeer if ne punk people will talk to me or look at me weird considering ths is SOOO not the preppy abercrombie nicole. and im not saying im in ike chains or ne thing odd its just well black and full coverage and NOT ME. well uhm correction it IS me but not the me that every1 else knows me by. well im blabbing on,ill have TONS more to right after school so i feel bad for u if u actually read my boring and long and pointles journal. ok nicole time to shut up. comment and tell me by the way if u read this and if i do blab on and on and on and on and on. hah. =p ne ways im home from school now.my mom madew me a REALLY good after school snack.i saw less people than usual today but it was all good. i was happy today. everything seemed better than usual.maybe people are forgetting me or gettin their own lives..FINALLY. i talked ot kyle today. hes so sweet and i talked to austin and hugged him. i melted. =/ yuh i cidnt even talk to him very long coz i felt like hugging him and crying. yah. and i saw josh i think once m not sure if i saw him or not now that i think about it. and i talked ot nick and james. thyere nice. well yah. uhm i talked to cox and karsten alot and i dano why i havnt hung out with them more. i see alot of other people looking all serious or upset and i realize HAHA NOW EVERY1 TALKS SHIT ABOUT YOU! yup. people are changin their minds about talking about me and moving on to other people. i think they talk shit about a few of my friends. wouldnt doubt it. haha SUCKERS! bad carma. mwahahahaha. well im supposta go to open house tonight so i think ill go to animal tan then to open house? yuh sounds good to me. lol i need a freaking tan when i waked with kyle a today i swear i looked like i was dead. welp gtg
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