Title: Between Love and Goodbye (sequel of WDSTF)
Author: Jess>>>>
bangxbangxdie7Pairing: See characters down below (link is provided)
Rating: NC-17, mainly for sex and language
POV: Third
Summary: The twins finally seem to be happy and content with their lives. Until everything starts to go wrong.
Disclaimer: Not true, I have a vivid imagination.
Author Note: I know there isn't much original slash on here but there should be! <3 ****Huge thanks to: faux_vive(who made the lovely banner) I love you guys! I hate begging but, please don't be silent readers, I'd love to hear from you!
Characters. We Didn't Start The Fire 1-16 Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12
Ben has been upset beyond belief since Caleb found out his secret. He doesn't blame Caleb at all for throwing him out and not talking to him for a few days. But it doesn't change how he's feeling. He feels like crap; not because he was found out but because he honestly didn't want to hurt Caleb, and he wound up doing just that. All he wants to do is curl up into a ball and cry all day, like he's been doing. And the cycle continues.
After a while he decides that he should stop crying and try to move around to do something productive. Before he can, he hears a knock on his door. He wishes it were Caleb, but by the soft sound he knows it is not.
"Come on in, Ellie," he says.
The little girl opens the door and walks into her big brothers room, with her favorite teddy bear in one hand and an unknown substance in the other. "What's goin' on little lady?"
She giggles and shrugs. "I don't know. I'm bored. Mommy just made me a cheese sammich, want some?" She asks, holding out her little hand.
"No thanks, sweetie. I had lunch already. It looks yummy though, is it?"
She nods and takes a huge bite. Crumbs are all over her shirt, but she doesn't seem to mind.
"B-Benny-" she swallows. "...how come Caleb doesn't come over any more? Is it cause of me?" She holds the bear tight to her chest and hops on Ben's bed.
"No Ellie, it's not because of you. It's because of me. It's hard for me to explain to you, but all you have to know is that we had a fight. Not a bad fight- we didn't hit each other or anything. We just...had a little argument, that's all."
She pouts out her bottom lip. "Well then all ya gotta do is say sorry and then he'll come over again. Right? So just do that so I can see him. I made him another friendship bracelet with different colors. I needa give it to him," she tries to reason.
Ben sighs and plays with the strings of his hooded sweatshirt. "It's not that easy, Ellie. I wish it were. Caleb is real angry with me. I don't think saying sorry is enough."
She looks so confused. "Ben, what did you do to make Caleb so mad at you? You can tell me. You're my big brother, you're supposta tell me everything."
There is no way he can tell her the truth, it's impossible. But he also can't lie to her. He's not sure how to go about the situation.
"I lied to Caleb. I knew it was really wrong of me...and I don't suggest you lie to anyone, but I just thought I had to lie. I thought lying would be the better thing to do. But I was wrong. Maybe you can learn from my mistake. I'm not sure if Caleb will forgive me for lying to him. I hope he does though. Because he's really important to me."
"And me too, Ben. I love Caleb. He's like another big brother. Two big brothers are so much better than one."
Ben laughs at his sister non-intentionally insulting him. "Yeah I know, Ellie. Maybe I should call him and ask him to come over, for your sake. But why don't you go take Mr. Bear for a ride in your Barbie Jeep and have daddy watch you while I go do that. Okay?"
The 5 year old nods and looks so happy as she trots out of his room.
He sighs and plops down on his bed face first. He'd rather suffocate than have Caleb reject him. Perhaps not, but the position he's in is actually comforting to him.
"BEN, COME ANSWER THE DOOR, CALEB'S HERE!" he hears his mom call out from downstairs.
So strange, how Caleb can show up in such an ironic situation. Nonetheless, Ben hurries down the steps and lets his boyfriend in.
"Hi, sorry I didn't call first or anything. I came here on impulse actually," the older boy says with a light shrug to his shoulders.
"That's okay. I'm glad you're here. Um, why don't you come up? So...we can talk."
Caleb says nothing, he only follows the blond up to his room.
Ben sits down on his bed like he had moments before. Caleb pulls out his rolley chair and has a seat. He sees that his boyfriend's bed is unmade and there is balled up tissues in his trash can.
He really needs to get everything off of his chest, no matter how much Ben has cried, he needs to hear this.
"Look Ben, I'm not happy about you lying to me. It broke my heart to know that I took your virginity without knowing it. It made me feel dirty and disgusting and...cheated almost. I thought I could trust you, with anything. I felt so close you to in such a short amount of time. And then you blurt out this huge secret. And everything falls apart. I just- at first I didn't know what to do. But now, now I know. I want to move forward and forgive you. It's not going to be easy but if you're willing to work with me then...I think we can work this out."
Ben's crystal blue eyes are watering, but he's slightly perplexed.
"So, you don't want to break up? I mean...I don't want to either- I just thought that you wanted to end things. I lied about the most important thing to you- and I'm very extremely sorry about it but I can't take it back. What's done is done, you know?"
Caleb runs his fingers through his hair. "Yeah but I love you, Ben. I can't just stop. I know you're a good person. I know you felt you had to lie in order to keep things going between us. You felt trapped. I get that. It doesn't make it okay, but I do understand. I-" Caleb stops for a moment, knowing that he can't say exactly what he wants to. "I've realized that there are worse things to lie about," the paternity of Grace's baby for example. "And I just don't want to lose you."
Ben smiles and sniffs. His sister is going to be so excited once she comes back into the house. Not nearly as excited as Ben, though.
"I don't want to lose you either, Caleb. I love you too. And I know you're not going to trust me for a long time, and that's fine. I deserve that. I'll do whatever you want me to do. I- I'm really fortunate that you're giving me a second chance."
Caleb gets up from his seating position and walks over to his boyfriend.
"All I want is for you to be honest with me, Ben. 100%, please. So if there's anything else you want to come clean about I suggest you do so right now."
He almost feels like a hypocrite about not telling his boyfriend about Grace's secret...but it's not really Ben's business. And besides, if he's not telling Corey...he's not telling anyone.
Ben shakes his head frantically. "No, I swear I'm not hiding anything else from you. I feel bad enough that I lied to you about something so important to you."
The blond looks so emotionally distraught. The poor thing was a mess for days. If Caleb never forgave him, he'd probably never get over it.
Caleb lifts up Ben's chin.
"Ben- I...of course not right now, but one day soon...you're going to let me make love to you the right way. How does that sound?" he says with a soft tone to his voice.
The younger boy smiles. "That sounds great. I- I don't deserve a second chance for that. But thank you. I know I made you feel terrible. And I'm awfully sorry about that-"
Caleb hushes his boyfriend with a prolonged kiss to his lips. "Shh, no more apologizing. We've done that. Now, we resume back to our otherwise happy and fulfilling relationship. Yes?"
"Yes, right," he agrees. "...how about we cuddle for a little while? I kind of miss your arms around me. I know it hasn't been very long but it feels like forever since we lied next to each other. Do you feel that way too? Or is it just me?"
Caleb chuckles as he begins to lie the both of them backwards onto Ben's mattress.
"Yes, felt like ages," he kisses Ben's forehead and snakes his arms around his small waist. "This is so nice. I love how we fit together so good. Could lie here all day."
They are both more than happy that they worked out their differences. Caleb loves Ben enough to move on. And move on they will.
~
Trevor takes out the small black velvet box that was hidden inside his jacket pocket. He opens the box and smirks at the small, but beautiful ring he bought for Grace. All he wants to do is put it on her finger, but he wants to make sure the ring is good enough. He only trusts one person with something as significant as this.
And that person is Corey.
He knocks on his best friends door three times to let him know it's him. It's been that way for years; three knocks and it's Trevor- always.
"Come on in Trev," the younger teen calls out, too lazy to open up his door.
Trevor lets himself in and smiles at the two love-birds. He's never seen Corey so happy. It's a change, but a change that is well accepted.
"Look at you two, all cozy and whatnot. Kevin, I'm glad you're here, I could use a third opinion."
Corey and Kevin stare at Trevor with looks of confusion. "Bout what?" They ask in unison.
They should really stop hanging out every second, they are starting to be more twin-like than Corey and Caleb; which is a scary thought.
"Well, I'm happy you asked!" He says sarcastically, pulling out the engagement ring for his future wife.
Corey and Kevin gasp- for two totally different reasons. Kevin gasps because he's excited for Trevor, and is excited about Trevor and Grace getting married and raising a child aspect. Corey on the other hand, gasps because he's watching his friend make the next move which will destroy his life. Maybe not destroy it, but make it a living hell.
"It's
beautiful!" Kevin says, outstretching his hand to grab a hold of the box.
Trevor hands it over and smiles with a cheeky grin. "I want to know what you guys think. I know the stone isn't quite that big but I'll upgrade it once I can. I know Grace deserves a rock the size of my eyeball but I'm really trying to save as much cash for our baby as I can. I already bought so much stuff; it's hiding in the garage cause it's a surprise. But anyways besides the point, so do you think she'll like it?"
Kevin nods. "Of course, Trevor. She loves you. She'd love any ring you picked out, you know that."
Corey has been extremely silent. Too silent.
"What about you, Corey? Are you in shock? I...kinda told you that I was planning on asking her to marry me. I'm waiting until she graduates but still. What's going on in your head?"
Corey snaps himself out of his trance. He is too busy trying to fathom why his best friend would want to marry someone like Grace. He deserves so much more than what she is. Their poor child will probably not be very bright. Musically talented and beautiful, but not very intelligent.
"Um I- yeah I mean I'm shocked. You guys are still so young and- I know you're having a baby but...all the more reason to wait. I mean weddings cost a lot of money and you said it yourself that you don't have much. But yeah, go ahead. The ring is perfect. I uh, I approve."
Corey has so much trouble saying those two words...because he really doesn't approve at all. He just wants what is going to make Trevor happy. Unfortunately for him, Grace makes him happy.
"You don't sound too sure there, buddy. Listen, you're my best friend. I absolutely need your support. I know...you and Grace aren't as tight as Grace and your brother but- I'm in love with her. I'm going to be in love with her for the rest of my life. Isn't that what you want for me?"
Corey instantly feels guilty. "Yes of course. I want what's best for you. I'm here for you all the way, Trev, you know that. I'll be next to you while you're waiting for her to walk down that aisle."
Trevor pulls Corey into a hug, and yanks Kevin by the shirt as well, for a three-way hug.
"Well that's the gayest thing I've ever done- and I'm pretty damn gay," Kevin jokes, releasing his boyfriend and Trevor from the hug.
Trevor laughs and closes up the ring box, putting it safely back in his pocket.
Corey smirks. "Trevor I just realized...almost everyone at your bachelor party is going to be gay. Might have to get you a male stripper; majority rules. Nah I'm just kidding me, Kevin, Caleb and Ben will handle it like champs."
Trevor cocks his eyebrow. "Batchelor party? Corey you don't have to give me one of those...I couldn't ask you to do that."
Corey puts a hand on his shoulder. "Trev, there's no way I'm NOT throwing you one. It's going to be great."
The oldest teen smiles. "All she needs to do is say yes, then we're all golden, aren't we?"
~
Grace is doing something stupid. It seems like she's always doing something stupid, bit this time it might actually benefit her instead of come back to bite her in the ass.
She is almost relieved when Jacob meets her at the hospital. Not that she thought he'd stand her up or anything, she just feels better now that she doesn't have to do this alone.
"Thanks for coming, Jake. I- you didn't have to," she says meekly.
He sighs. "The only reason I'm the one whose here is because Trevor is in the dark. But you're welcome I guess. I just...I just want this to be sorted out."
The young girl holds onto her pregnant belly. "We won't get the results right away you know. It's going to take a week or two. I- they need to do a procedure which involves a needle almost longer than my arm; that's why you're here; to please hold my hand."
The redhead's blue eyes grow soft. "Grace...won't that hurt the baby? It's not that important...we can wait until it's born. Really."
He never thought that determining the paternity would be so invasive.
"It's risky, but the doctors would let me know if I shouldn't do it."
"And your doctor gave you the okay? Did she say anything about it?"
Grace shakes her head. "The baby will be fine."
A tall male nurse comes into the waiting room with a clip-board. "Grace Gregory?"
Jacob takes her hand as they both stand up. "Here we go."
The room they enter is welcoming, a bright green is painted on the walls. Grace lies down on the cushion provided on the table. She takes a deep breath and tries to smile.
"Your regular doctor will be in momentarily, but I just need to take your temperature and blood pressure beforehand okay?"
"Sure, of course."
Her temperature is perfect, but her blood pressure is a little high. Not high enough to postpone the procedure, thank goodness. She would hate to have to sneak out yet again.
Both Jacob and Grace's hearts race when Dr. Ying enters the room. She's been a great doctor to Grace during her pregnancy but it doesn't comfort her nerves when there is a huge needle in her hand.
"Don't worry, Grace. You'll only feel slight discomfort and a bit of pressure. I've done this hundreds of times. Just relax, and look at- I'm sorry what's your name?"
"Jacob- Jake; whichever."
"Relax and look at Jake. Ready?"
Grace grips onto her ex-lovers hand tight and mutters out a small 'yes.'
It isn't as bad as she imagined it would be, but it was not a fun process. At least the true father of her baby will be known to her in a matter of time.
"Thank you so much Dr. Ying. I really appreciate it. So- I can call in for the results when?"
"I'm sorry Grace we can't give that kind of information over the phone for identity reasons. But we can mail them to you as soon as we get them, or you can come pick them up in two weeks."
Grace nods. "I'll pick them up, thank you. I'll see you then."
The last thing she wants is Mr. and Mrs. Burrows to open up the mail and find a paternity test...that would not go over so well.
"I should drive you home, you just had a needle in your stomach."
"No I'm fine. Thanks for offering though. I know you're trying your best to be good to me despite my actions towards you. I'll um. I'll call you once I find out the results; either way."
Jacob bites down on his lip. "Grace, I'm glad you came to your senses and wanted the testing done- but will it really change anything? What if I'm the father? What are you going to do?"
She looks up at the sky and shakes her head. "No offense- but I'm praying to the Lord that you aren't."
He puts his hand on her shoulder. "That doesn't answer my question."
She shakes his hand off. "I don't know. I have to go now. I'll call you in two weeks. Bye Jake."