ahhhhh trippin balls
so i just found out- just now that i've been pigging out on vikaden (sp?) jeeeez. i'm so sick that if i don't take medication i trip out. how wierd is that? but then again that's always been the case except NOW i'm really tweeking out. i'm like ultra- sensitive to everything, my head is pulsing and random parts of my body keep going numb. I can actually feel my heart, like woah. i can't miss anymore school cuz i ditch so much that if i get one more absense they are expelling me- well classifying me as a drop out- so indirectly kicking me out. that's lammmme. My dear Dave did coke last night for the first time, hmmmm that's cool. at least it made him feel like an intellectual so he tells me- that's rad. i just wish i was healthy, i'm so weak and frail. god, i'm freaked out, like i seriously feel as though i am dieing, which is cool for perspective and all, but just being well is such an occasion and that's not good. i sound like a fuckin tard, mmmmmm bo beep do wat doo do. i told dar he was a fuck face. welll he is. i watched company practicing in the aufitorium today and got real sad, i want to be preforming right now damn it. that and i really want to be in bed with dave. yeah pretty much. my hicky is going away and that makes me sad too, what a wonderous hicky it is. dave is truely talented- it's plain and simple. wow my throat feels nice, i can swallow at the moment!!!! it's amazing what i take for granted- just swallowing. wow-yeah didly dee do doo dat wha da i'm going to bed- fuck. hahaha just heard this i love you is 8 letters just like bullshit. heee heeee ha! haha ha hoooooooo