Strange-ness
Lately, I had been feeling really discontent, especially with my marriage, I know, wtf? But I had been obsessing over all the things that are not perfect, and that is stupid, because nothing in life is perfect. Sure I don't get all the sex I want, and sometimes I think Scott is an insensitive jerk to my feelings, but you know what? Sometimes I'm a bitch and I don't do housework so its not like I'm "Miss Perfect" either.
I snapped out of it last night when we were watching TV and just being stupid and silly and it was like we always had been, before we were always tired and stressed out and I had one of those moments where everything is so perfect that all those flaws don't matter, and you know that your going to be with this person for the rest of your life. Yeah I know... kinda sappy, but I just felt so happy in that moment that I can hold onto that feeling and bask in its warm glow.
This morning Scott must of kissed me goodbye when his aftershave was still wet, cuz I can smell it on my skin....... mmmmmmmmm, I LOVE the smell of it..... actually it might be deoderant, but whatever it is, LOVE the smell. So today I will smell like a man, but I don't care.
In other news Scott let me order a bunch of beading books and supplies on Amazon this morning. I have decided that I want to give the whole bead jelwery thing a go. I know tons of ppl do it, and there is probably no money in it, but I am SO BORED, and its something creative I can do, if nothing else I have a way to make gifts for ppl... lol, I forse many homemade jewelery and stuff for family. I think if I wanted to actually sell it online I would have to wait till I'm back in Australia, since it would probably be subject to tax and me needing a permit for work over here, but that is okay, gives me time to learn and practice AND since I was spurred to actually do this by someone over here she can't complain that I stole her idea and be all pissy because I have gotten into it. I have been wanting to do something FOREVER, and I had actually thought about making jewlery a few times but always dismissed it as a stupid idea, but I NEED SOMETHING to do other than just WoW all the time..... and something creative.
Running the NCC shows right now, cuz I've been, once again, putting it off...... when did the NCC start being a chore and not so fun anymore? Oh thats right, I run the NCC even tho I was supposed to be co-owner in name only.