speculum
on monday i went for my annual gyno appointment. my gyno is a NP/midwife. she gave me a long lecture about why i shouldnt go back to school (esp if i dont want to in the first place!) partially while she left the speculum hangin out in there. the latter part was weird but i feel a lot better now. she said its not worth the decrease in quality of life or the bullshit politics. NPs are the "step children" of the healthcare system according to her. i wish i hadn't been coming off of a nightshift and close to 24 hours awake so i could have focused more, but it was still an enlightening conversation.