Time Of My Life (Mirrors)
‘No-one’s hurt you like that’, my mother’s voice ran through my head over and over again.
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The ball didn’t exactly climbs into my top 5 of most excited moments in my life. Naomi did show up but only to rub at my face one of the biggest mistakes I’ve made in my life.
I wanted to tell her, ‘well you didn’t did you hon?’, that’s the first time she’s called me something other than Emily, Ems or Em, it felt so nice, except she was angry and it wasn’t a real love compliment, much as a jealous statement that was.
I couldn’t help it, I saw her leave and I left there too, only to realize Katie went back inside then I couldn’t leave at all.
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‘She deserved it’, there was more to it but that was the part that hurt the most, Katie was the one who spilled my fiasco, she tried to make me stay ‘Emily please don’t walk away’ where the last words I heard.
As if Naomi would actually follow me now, not after that, not after everything she knows and whatever else Katie added to it. I need to explain, explain to her that it meant nothing, that if I could I wouldn’t do it again. I also need to scream at her she was the one that drove me into fucking JJ, she didn’t even said hello to me at the club, or even stopped fucking ‘Katiekins’ when she was pulling me out of there.
I was sitting in the stairs, neither one of them followed me out, it had already pass an hour, I didn’t wanted to go home but I wasn’t going to wait either, I’ve waited long enough for everything, so I started walking back home.
Fighting the tears of my face, I was so stupid, that was my opportunity to tell Katie everything, tell Naomi just how much…how much, but as always I didn’t, I walked away and I really shouldn’t have.
Just around the corner of my house I had the need to vomit, could be the drink but I was pretty sure it was nerves and my body reacting to everything I just went through, then I saw her, outside my house, in front of that door, the cat flap, I just sighed and I went to meet her.
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She seemed so mad and sad at the same time my heart flinched at the sight, I did that and now I was so scared about what was going to happen but she was there for a reason, me.
‘Hey’ stupidly enough that was the first thing that came out of my mouth, she looked up though, I noticed she had been crying and now she was trying really hard not to, so was I. ‘Hello’ sad blue eyes meeting mine in response.
‘I’m sorry’ my voice broke as I told her that ‘it meant nothing’ now my lips where trembling and my throat was dry I sat beside her ‘it was a shitty thing to do yeah, and I should’ve told you’ my eyes on her neck, I noticed that she swallowed hard and her eyes were filled with tears, I searched for her hand and placed it in mine, I was genuinely surprised when I received a squeeze in return.
‘look Em’ she exhaled ‘I won’t pretend…it feels like shit, especially considering the fucking source’ she turned to look at me and I could only look back I had probably the saddest look on my face all mixed with regret ‘but’ my heart pounded hard at the word ‘I guess I can’t really hold it against you, I was a prick most of the time as you once told me, and I wasn’t sure’ my heart pounded again this time faster, my face light up and she squeezed my hand again.
‘wasn’t?’ all I could manage without crying like a baby
‘well I am here, aren’t I?’ she half smiled, that smiled I learned to know, I couldn’t fight the urge to kiss her so I did, she kissed me back and softly pulled away from it, then she pointed to the back ‘right’ I could only manage and my head found its way to her shoulder.
‘my place?’ she asked while she kissed the top of my head, I just stood up.
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‘You’re really beautiful Naomi’ my voice sounded hoarse, she leaned in kissed me, deep ‘you’re not so bad yourself’ we kissed again, clothes gone slowly, her eyes looking at me as if it was the first time, love, and I’m sure she saw that in me too.
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The ball didn’t exactly climbs into my top 5 of most excited moments in my life. Naomi did show up but only to rub at my face one of the biggest mistakes I’ve made in my life.
I wanted to tell her, ‘well you didn’t did you hon?’, that’s the first time she’s called me something other than Emily, Ems or Em, it felt so nice, except she was angry and it wasn’t a real love compliment, much as a jealous statement that was.
I couldn’t help it, I saw her leave and I left there too, only to realize Katie went back inside then I couldn’t leave at all.
---
‘She deserved it’, there was more to it but that was the part that hurt the most, Katie was the one who spilled my fiasco, she tried to make me stay ‘Emily please don’t walk away’ where the last words I heard.
As if Naomi would actually follow me now, not after that, not after everything she knows and whatever else Katie added to it. I need to explain, explain to her that it meant nothing, that if I could I wouldn’t do it again. I also need to scream at her she was the one that drove me into fucking JJ, she didn’t even said hello to me at the club, or even stopped fucking ‘Katiekins’ when she was pulling me out of there.
I was sitting in the stairs, neither one of them followed me out, it had already pass an hour, I didn’t wanted to go home but I wasn’t going to wait either, I’ve waited long enough for everything, so I started walking back home.
Fighting the tears of my face, I was so stupid, that was my opportunity to tell Katie everything, tell Naomi just how much…how much, but as always I didn’t, I walked away and I really shouldn’t have.
Just around the corner of my house I had the need to vomit, could be the drink but I was pretty sure it was nerves and my body reacting to everything I just went through, then I saw her, outside my house, in front of that door, the cat flap, I just sighed and I went to meet her.
---
She seemed so mad and sad at the same time my heart flinched at the sight, I did that and now I was so scared about what was going to happen but she was there for a reason, me.
‘Hey’ stupidly enough that was the first thing that came out of my mouth, she looked up though, I noticed she had been crying and now she was trying really hard not to, so was I. ‘Hello’ sad blue eyes meeting mine in response.
‘I’m sorry’ my voice broke as I told her that ‘it meant nothing’ now my lips where trembling and my throat was dry I sat beside her ‘it was a shitty thing to do yeah, and I should’ve told you’ my eyes on her neck, I noticed that she swallowed hard and her eyes were filled with tears, I searched for her hand and placed it in mine, I was genuinely surprised when I received a squeeze in return.
‘look Em’ she exhaled ‘I won’t pretend…it feels like shit, especially considering the fucking source’ she turned to look at me and I could only look back I had probably the saddest look on my face all mixed with regret ‘but’ my heart pounded hard at the word ‘I guess I can’t really hold it against you, I was a prick most of the time as you once told me, and I wasn’t sure’ my heart pounded again this time faster, my face light up and she squeezed my hand again.
‘wasn’t?’ all I could manage without crying like a baby
‘well I am here, aren’t I?’ she half smiled, that smiled I learned to know, I couldn’t fight the urge to kiss her so I did, she kissed me back and softly pulled away from it, then she pointed to the back ‘right’ I could only manage and my head found its way to her shoulder.
‘my place?’ she asked while she kissed the top of my head, I just stood up.
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‘You’re really beautiful Naomi’ my voice sounded hoarse, she leaned in kissed me, deep ‘you’re not so bad yourself’ we kissed again, clothes gone slowly, her eyes looking at me as if it was the first time, love, and I’m sure she saw that in me too.
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