I wanna be free from you...=/
Alright, I know that I haven't updated for a while. But i have a good reason for that....Well sorta. Things around here have started to ease down around the house. The rents are starting to be really easy on me. & they are starting to trust me alot more. THANK GOD! Last week was alright. Thurdsay my Aunt Paula & Uncle Casey came down. That was neat. I had to sleep in my sisters room. I woke up in the middle of the night freaking out because I forgot where I was for a minute lol. Then on Friday my grandpa & aunt Bev came down. I finally get to see my Grandpa! =) I've really missed him too! That night Tristan, Nathan, & I went to the movies. Twas GREAT! haha. Tristan and I had to sleep out in the pool room that night. At first it was really hot then it got really cold because it started raining. Then on Saturday Tristan and I went and hung out for a while. Then I had to come home and spend time with the family. Mom said I was aloud to stay at Tristans ONLY if I was good and if I stayed at Tristans house. So Tristan, Tiffany, Hannah, & I went and rented movies. We rented Napolian Dynamite & Alfie. OH-MI-GOSH! I recommend Alfie to EVERY girl out there. That movie makes you think HARD about your life (even though he has sex with a bunch of girls). But yeah, I was on the phone all night with Andrew =) Wow! We talked about a lot of things. It was really cool! :] Tristan was on the phone with Paul. I haven't seen that kid in a while. Their dad needs to find a way to get his kids this weekend! That way we all can hang out! Anywho. Sunday morning I went out with my mom, dad, grandpa, both aunts, uncle, & sister. We went to the beach to spread my grandmas ashes out in the ocean. That was the hardest thing I've even been through in my life. My dad & uncle got in the water to spread her ashes. I didn't bother to take my shoes off or roll my pants up, I just walked right into the water fully clothed and just stood out there in the freezing cold water. I didn't know what to do really. I wanted to cry, but I wouldn't let myself. I just stood there in disbeliefe. Then I got out and walked back to the car. When we got home I left and didn't talk to anyone for about 2 hours. I went and just hung out with Tristan til 8. Then I came home and Andrew called me and we talked until about 11. This morning Andrew met me and Tristan. Tristan said that Crystal was Jealous of me and andrew....Thats his best friend & I dont want that to stop because of me. =( Sigh. Now Crystals saying to make sure that he asks me out. After school I made him feel like shit...I told him that I did still have feelings for Brian. Yeah, I do...But I can't help it. But I should know by now that he's not coming back. & as for Jonathan...heh...He will never come back to me. I lost both of them. =( I really hate where i stand right now in life. I don't care about all the guys that like me. Thats not what I want. I want my friends back. I miss Lissa. I talked to her today. It was a little weird but shes one of my best friends and I hate that taking this break didnt do anything for me. Its like I just ditched my best friend. Hopefully things will be back to normal soon. Well as for school, Im doing alot better. Grades are coming up. I went from a F to a high B in 1st. a D to a B in 2nd. The D still stands in my 3rd. & I dont know what I have in 4th because we had another sub. Go figure it was Adam Cumbie's DAD! lol. They look like brothers! Anywho. Im waiting on Andrew to call me back. He's on the phone with his brother. & I need to call Tristan later too. But I dont know if I will or not. Well im gonna go and do some things. Maybe shoot another game of pool or something. Mahrukh...Im gonna write him that note. I need to know if im waisting my time or not! That way I can know wheather or not to move on or not. I <3 you babe! You are the best! =] Well see yall in the morning. Night everyone. Leave some comments.