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[baner]

I've been looking through my call records and not a single trace of your name
I don't understand maybe its you, maybe its me, or maybe its you guys
I always find myself feeling like everything changes when a third party
comes into the picture, specificly of the opposite sex and I just don't
see why it should be that way I'm probably overreacting because I don't know
or understand how it feels Maybe if I had someone things would be buch clearer
But we all know thats not happening, not with my luck anyways I just keep finding
myself contenplating as to why.. everything keeps changing before my eyes and I
don't think that I have grown fond of change too much before The point is I just
want to laugh with you and know that no one else can understand me and my every
moods and feelings the way you do You mean so much to me you don't even understand
Mabybe the part that is eating me the most inside is I want to see things from
your veiw.. I want to see how it feels to better understand things and the way
they are or becoming.. Its just so frustrating but it's not just one person
I know of course, you say you care but I just want to be able to sense
that you are happy to be around my presence, like you always have.. and I can't
let this go, I would never let this go because I want things to change and I know
an attempt has been made but why hasn't it stayed that way.. Tell me why I feel
like crying as I type You're my everything and the only one who knows every
little thing about me I just want things back to the way they used to be.