No need to put it any other way or phrasing. Sliced bread, cold.
Thank you, coffee [hazelnut w/ soy & honey from the CoHo, fyi], for probably doubling the brain stimulation and shaking sensation more than already, but
whether you or I realize it enough fully,
there are some life-changing decisions on the horizon, and a decision I have to make within literally the next couple of days. I need to offer up a verdict of the heart, and it's going to take the utmost reliance on processing what I've experienced the past two days, as well as my intuition and state of mind/heart.
Stuff is serious. It's not a small matter and for all purposes and intent, I'm really not exaggerating. College is four years, but an awful important four years of your life, ones that you can't piss away like in high school. You're held accountable for many things, almost everything actually. But I'm not whining about that, because we all have to grow up and we all need those necessary life skills if we are to be autonomous human beings. I feel like I'm preaching to the choir.
And I have very little sleep, and very little sense of what down-time is over the span of the past couple of days,
and you'd be surprised
how much your mind expands in these types of conditions.
But I feel like, even when I wake up tomorrow, hopefully better rested, that the same questions will still be turning over in my mind.
Deflated ego vs. question mark of the year leap of faith.
Nothing will wait on me so long.