so yeah...
alright.. so this is my live journal... iv'e been getting told to make one soo i guess i will... and now what do i write... i guess i write what ever is in my head... and since i can't write "bloody mucus coated grey tissue mass" (ok smart ass i know i can write the words thats not what i mean) i guess all that leave me to write is to try to put in to words the thoughts that are the result of the chemical reactions in that afore mentioned bloody mucus coated grey tissue mass. Soo what am i feeling... welll the first thought at the moment is nothing... alll in all its been a pretty shitty week... one thing after another has gone wrong as has kept me from doing the things that i want to get done... last night it all came to a head, and my mind just got tired and turned of... i guess its a little defense mechanism, or something... my mind gets to a point where its sooooo tired of feeling shitty that is just turns off my ability to feel so that it can rest and work on a way to fix the problem by looking at it completly anaylticly with out the emotional disturbences of a 20 something male psyche... (did that make any fucking sense? i just wrote it was it came to my head. and honestly im not going to try to reanalyze my emotions or thoughts at this point cause i just dont see a point... and i've typed too much about it already and am typing more as i continue to type more) ok.. enough of that... sooo. what am i up too now... well simple.. the good old head has figured some things out and im cleaning my house right now cause it being a damn landfill for the last week has been one of the bigger problems...... next thing the car.. i cant do shit about that... the mechanics working on it... after that... some interperonal relationship nonsense.. i guess with that i just need to take a breather and re prioritize some things.. and then i should be all better again... ok.. thats enougth for now... wee...... :)