Aug 11, 2004 01:48
xzilireight (11:49:14 PM): hullo
Bane0164 (11:49:19 PM): hey baby
Bane0164 (11:49:40 PM): whats up?
xzilireight (11:49:46 PM): I started a journal
xzilireight (11:49:55 PM): but it's confusing
Bane0164 (11:50:35 PM): what can i help with?
xzilireight (11:51:56 PM): hmmm I'm not sure
xzilireight (11:52:25 PM): how do I change the color of my screen thingy?
Bane0164 (11:52:43 PM): your background?
Bane0164 (11:52:50 PM): say hi to heather, be polite
Bane0164 (11:52:54 PM): shame shame
Bane0164 (11:52:57 PM): im joking
xzilireight (11:54:41 PM): rar hold on a second
Bane0164 (11:54:55 PM): okay, we might just need to do this when i come over
xzilireight (11:55:41 PM): mmmm
xzilireight (11:55:42 PM): ok
xzilireight (11:55:47 PM): is heather online?
Bane0164 (11:55:53 PM): she just signed off
xzilireight (11:56:00 PM): rar!!!!!
xzilireight (11:56:03 PM): I missed her
Bane0164 (11:56:12 PM): yeah, she said hi, since i told her you said hi
Bane0164 (11:56:16 PM): since you said hi earlier
xzilireight (11:56:19 PM): m kay
Bane0164 (11:56:31 PM): actually she said. . .
Bane0164 (11:56:34 PM): hi rose!!!
Bane0164 (11:56:39 PM): :-D
xzilireight (11:56:41 PM): cool
xzilireight (11:56:46 PM): she's nice
Bane0164 (11:56:56 PM): except her im is different colors than mine, and she has a different screen name
xzilireight (11:57:47 PM): ???
Bane0164 (11:58:14 PM): when she sends messages to people, it isn't a black background and gray text
Bane0164 (11:58:21 PM): its different colors
Bane0164 (11:58:32 PM): and her screen name isn't bane_0164
xzilireight (11:58:58 PM): ok...haha
Bane0164 (12:00:23 AM): yeah, i tried to be funny, but it didn't work out to well
xzilireight (12:00:30 AM): sry...
xzilireight (12:00:35 AM): it's my fault
Bane0164 (12:00:46 AM): haha, finally something is your fault
xzilireight (12:01:07 AM): you know that in ereality everything is always my fault, right? lol
xzilireight (12:01:13 AM): *reality
Bane0164 (12:01:43 AM): haha
Bane0164 (12:01:44 AM): NO
Bane0164 (12:01:49 AM): IT'S NOT
xzilireight (12:02:05 AM): YES! IT IS!
xzilireight (12:02:07 AM): so there!
xzilireight (12:02:10 AM): *kiss
Bane0164 (12:02:11 AM): NO
Bane0164 (12:02:17 AM): IT'S *kiss* NOT
xzilireight (12:02:22 AM): lol
xzilireight (12:02:24 AM): damn
xzilireight (12:02:29 AM): thats hard to respond to
Bane0164 (12:06:58 AM): haha, i win
Bane0164 (12:07:13 AM): and now that no-one else is online but you, you get all 100% of my attention
xzilireight (12:07:18 AM): No Your NOt
Bane0164 (12:07:46 AM): no im not what?\
xzilireight (12:08:06 AM): but yay
xzilireight (12:08:10 AM): your mine now
Bane0164 (12:08:28 AM): i am yours, if you will have me, forever and always hopefully
xzilireight (12:08:56 AM): *blush
Bane0164 (12:09:06 AM): ???
Bane0164 (12:09:19 AM): so did you read my journals?
Bane0164 (12:09:39 AM): never mind, yes you did, you replied to one of them
xzilireight (12:09:52 AM): I was blushing because that was sweet, and I am in the process of reading them
Bane0164 (12:10:12 AM): ah, i should do that real quick, i don't think there is anything bad in them
xzilireight (12:10:45 AM): lol
xzilireight (12:10:47 AM): jk
Bane0164 (12:11:22 AM): oh yeah, there is one really bad part
Bane0164 (12:11:27 AM): *smacks self in head
xzilireight (12:11:31 AM): ??????????
Bane0164 (12:11:51 AM): for some reason, i called you Rosa throughout the entire journal
xzilireight (12:12:04 AM): lol
xzilireight (12:12:10 AM): some people do anyway
xzilireight (12:12:12 AM): thats cool
xzilireight (12:12:14 AM): I like it
xzilireight (12:15:28 AM): hullo?
Bane0164 (12:15:39 AM): hi, i was actually reading through all of my old journals
xzilireight (12:15:48 AM): oh...I was skimming them
xzilireight (12:15:54 AM): some of them are depressing
Bane0164 (12:16:05 AM): no , thats fine, no shit some of them are, especially the ones right before i met you
xzilireight (12:16:15 AM): hmmm
xzilireight (12:16:25 AM): haven't read those carefully
Bane0164 (12:16:31 AM): An intelligent man is sometimes forced to be drunk to spend time with his fools.
Ernest Hemingway
xzilireight (12:17:05 AM): Andrew, you are one of the most wonderful people I know - Rose Guterbock
Bane0164 (12:18:55 AM): Rose Guterbock you are what pulled me out of my depressed and possbily suicidal state, and for that I am eternally grateful. Furthermore, you have allowed me tosee many things that i was blind to and now realize and can examine. I love you now and forever, no matter what happens in the future.
Bane0164 (12:19:15 AM): i hate it when i can't articulate what i want to say
xzilireight (12:19:29 AM): wow...speechless
xzilireight (12:20:05 AM): you make me happy...I feel very bubbly right now, that's all I can say
Bane0164 (12:20:12 AM): well you don't have to say anything, were typing *smacks self in head* for being an idiot. *smacks self in head* for ruining the moment
xzilireight (12:20:29 AM): lol
xzilireight (12:20:47 AM): don't smack your self that would hurt I'll kiss you instead
Bane0164 (12:22:04 AM): So let me see, after last updating i went back to Richmond that night to stay with Rose. Her name is Rose, not Rosa, don't know why in the hell i typed that. *Smacks self in head* Anyway, so i stayed up their sunday night and most of monday too.
What can i say? I can't find the words to describe how i feel about her. Since the first night that I met her we have had a connection. When im with her I am happy and can't ask for anything else. When i think about her i get happy.
xzilireight (12:22:50 AM): yay I was just reading that
Bane0164 (12:23:10 AM): Hello empty screen. Tell me, what should I write about? hmmmm... I haven't kept a diary in years. Oh well. Fuck it. I'll write more later. Rose
Bane0164 (12:23:20 AM): yeah, we need to work on your page, it looks weird
xzilireight (12:23:39 AM): rar
xzilireight (12:23:45 AM): thats embarrasing
Bane0164 (12:25:53 AM): there, now i can write journals so that just you can read them
Bane0164 (12:26:03 AM): and you have to log in to be able to read them
xzilireight (12:26:47 AM): well, I'm logged in
xzilireight (12:26:49 AM): yay
Bane0164 (12:27:14 AM): i just updated
Bane0164 (12:27:50 AM): okay it works, i can't see it if im not logged on
Bane0164 (12:28:27 AM): yes it succeeded
xzilireight (12:28:43 AM): yay
xzilireight (12:28:56 AM): well, I got your message
Bane0164 (12:30:00 AM): oh yeah, i answered your earlier question in the journal
xzilireight (12:30:17 AM): hmmm shall we read it then? lol
Bane0164 (12:30:22 AM): sure
Bane0164 (12:30:36 AM): fun fun joy joy
xzilireight (12:30:52 AM): yes it did, so let me see, we rolled around for a while, we wrestled, you tried to tickle me
xzilireight (12:30:53 AM): lol
Bane0164 (12:31:04 AM): well didnt' we?
xzilireight (12:31:34 AM): yes yes we did
Bane0164 (12:31:45 AM): i think we should do that again some time
xzilireight (12:31:53 AM): me too
Bane0164 (12:32:02 AM): what ya doin tonight?
xzilireight (12:32:12 AM): talking to you
xzilireight (12:32:15 AM): why?
Bane0164 (12:32:47 AM): i don't know, that mustang can go atleat 120mph, and since, crozet is only like 80 miles away or so, i could be there fairly quickly
Bane0164 (12:33:05 AM): i don't think its even that far, but it might be
xzilireight (12:34:06 AM): rar don't make me sad..I really want to see you...but we both know that you shouldn'r rive that thing, and further more, I'd be in alot of trouble when you showed up here...
Bane0164 (12:34:40 AM): i know i know damnit i know, just wishful thinking, and don't be sad
Bane0164 (12:34:52 AM): Rose Guterbock you are what pulled me out of my depressed and possbily suicidal state, and for that I am eternally grateful. Furthermore, you have allowed me tosee many things that i was blind to and now realize and can examine. I love you now and forever, no matter what happens in the future.
xzilireight (12:36:37 AM): I love you too, very very much...and I am glad to know you, You have my upmost respect and that is quite an acheivement...*kiss
Bane0164 (12:36:49 AM): *kisses*
xzilireight (12:37:02 AM): mmm mmm good
xzilireight (12:37:05 AM): grood
Bane0164 (12:37:27 AM): *sucks on neck*
Bane0164 (12:37:33 AM): *kiss*
Bane0164 (12:38:10 AM): no response?
xzilireight (12:38:14 AM): okay, just thinking about that makes it extremely difficult for me to function so...bad bad bad andrew...lol
xzilireight (12:38:17 AM): see
xzilireight (12:38:22 AM): I couldn't type
Bane0164 (12:38:33 AM): sweet, that cool
xzilireight (12:38:50 AM): No IT's NOT
xzilireight (12:38:51 AM): lol
xzilireight (12:38:54 AM): ya
xzilireight (12:38:56 AM): it is
xzilireight (12:39:05 AM): that's what you do to me..rar
Bane0164 (12:39:13 AM): im glad i do that to you
xzilireight (12:39:21 AM): ...me too
Bane0164 (12:39:34 AM): and im glad for what you do to me too
xzilireight (12:39:50 AM): lol that's a happy thought
Bane0164 (12:40:03 AM): many happy thoughts, since you do many things to me
xzilireight (12:40:25 AM): although sometimes I'm not sure WHAT exactly I do to you...it seems that most tmes they are good...so...I'm glad
xzilireight (12:40:42 AM): *times
Bane0164 (12:40:44 AM): im not even sure what exactly you do to me, but it is good
xzilireight (12:40:49 AM): lol
xzilireight (12:40:55 AM): weird but good
Bane0164 (12:41:05 AM): well some i can say, but others i can't
xzilireight (12:41:12 AM): Oh?
Bane0164 (12:41:43 AM): well the way you move, breath, the noises you make, when you return the favor that i have only got to do once, those are things i can say
Bane0164 (12:41:57 AM): some things i don't know where to begin describing, i just can't describe them
xzilireight (12:42:09 AM): I can relate
Bane0164 (12:42:46 AM): so were both in the same boat
xzilireight (12:43:01 AM): floating
Bane0164 (12:43:28 AM): its a good boat to be in
xzilireight (12:43:50 AM): I agree with you, Mr. Martin
Bane0164 (12:45:06 AM): good
Bane0164 (12:45:16 AM): when did i become Mr. Martin???
xzilireight (12:45:33 AM): haven't you always been?
xzilireight (12:45:34 AM): lol
xzilireight (12:45:37 AM): I dunno
Bane0164 (12:45:44 AM): haha, yes, i guess your right
xzilireight (12:45:51 AM): just felt like addressing you as a grown up just then
Bane0164 (12:46:23 AM): well thats cool, it just remined me, for some reason, Hunter, Seine, Jack and I used to say that every time we saw each other at school
Bane0164 (12:46:30 AM): like if i saw Seine i would say
Bane0164 (12:46:38 AM): Mr. Heasley, instead of yo, or whats up, or hi
xzilireight (12:46:53 AM): haha it makes one feel special that it does
Bane0164 (12:47:30 AM): yep yep
xzilireight (12:48:35 AM): my stupid computer won't let me save this...will you save it and send it to me via email?
xzilireight (12:48:46 AM): It's special to me
Bane0164 (12:48:53 AM): i most certaintly will
xzilireight (12:49:01 AM): kiss
Bane0164 (12:49:35 AM): do you want this part, or should i save when we get done and save the entire thing?
Bane0164 (12:49:37 AM): kiss
xzilireight (12:50:11 AM): how about all of it? All of me...just take ...all of me...*sings*
Bane0164 (12:50:46 AM): <--------- thinks bad thoughts
xzilireight (12:51:06 AM): thinks bad thoughts too
xzilireight (12:51:07 AM): lol
Bane0164 (12:51:50 AM): but they are fun
xzilireight (12:52:26 AM): mmmm yessss they arrrrrre
Bane0164 (12:53:46 AM): She'll be right here in my arms, so in love
she'll be right here in these arms, she can't let go
Bane0164 (12:53:46 AM): I see it in your eyes, I feel it in your touch
I taste it from your lips,
and baby more I LOVE YOU
Bane0164 (12:54:21 AM): You are my heaven
xzilireight (12:54:34 AM): *growls softly*
Bane0164 (12:54:58 AM): *spine tingles*
xzilireight (12:55:13 AM): sweet
Bane0164 (12:55:45 AM): do you know where that stuff is from?
xzilireight (12:56:25 AM): HIM
Bane0164 (12:56:56 AM): 100 points to the beautiful Ms. Guterbock
xzilireight (12:57:33 AM): YAY I win
xzilireight (12:57:35 AM): lol
xzilireight (12:57:37 AM): actually
xzilireight (12:58:07 AM): I loose to your incredible sense of beauty and timing
Bane0164 (12:58:27 AM): yay
xzilireight (12:58:37 AM): lol
Bane0164 (12:58:43 AM): but i know that we both win
xzilireight (12:59:23 AM): mr romantic, are we?
Bane0164 (1:00:12 AM): why not, i think you'd be surprised, and me too possbily, at how romantic i could be
xzilireight (1:01:34 AM): oh...well I'm sure you are quite a romantic...I've already seen a part of you that is and anyway, you fit my description af hat a girl wants in a guy perfectly...so, what more is there to ask?
Bane0164 (1:02:08 AM): its not that you asked, what more do can i give? is what i asked myself
xzilireight (1:02:21 AM): Chocolates and roses are but a mere cover up for what lies beneath
Bane0164 (1:02:43 AM): let me wake up in your arms
every time we touch we get closer to heaven
all I ever wanted was you my love
you're all I ever wanted
you, my love
Bane0164 (1:04:25 AM): There was a time when I could breathe my life in you
one by one your pale fingers started to move
I touched your face and all live was erased
you smiled like an angel
fallen from grace
We've been slaves to this love
from the moment we touched
and keep begging for more
of this resurrection
You kissed my lips, with those once cold fingertips
you reached out for me - oh, how you missed
you touched my face - all live was erased
you smiled like an angel
fallen from grace
Bane0164 (1:04:36 AM): i fell that that is what you have done for me
Bane0164 (1:04:49 AM): i feel that that is what you have done for me
xzilireight (1:08:24 AM): you are my everything...I have come to believe that as I do my own existance
Bane0164 (1:08:55 AM): no suitable reply
xzilireight (1:09:17 AM): you don't need to reply
Bane0164 (1:10:30 AM): jusy making sure you knew that i wasn't just not saying anything cuz i wasn't paying attention
xzilireight (1:10:53 AM): lol
xzilireight (1:11:00 AM): I know you're there
Bane0164 (1:12:37 AM): I love you not only for what you are,
but for what I am when I am with you
- Elizabeth Barrett Browning -
Bane0164 (1:13:46 AM): Never Have I Fallen
Your lips speak soft sweetness
Your touch a cool caress
I am lost in your magic
My heart beats within your chest
I think of you each morning
And dream of you each night
I think of your arms being around me
And cannot express my delight
Never have I fallen
But I am quickly on my way
You hold a heart in your hands
That has never before been given away
- Rex A. Williams -
xzilireight (1:14:34 AM): What greater thing is there for two human souls that to feel that they are joined... to strengthen each other... to be at one with each other in silent unspeakable memories.
~ George Eliot
Bane0164 (1:14:53 AM): No words can express what i fell inside, my heart, my soul, my entire being. Everything said tonight just scrathces the surface. - Andrew Martin
Bane0164 (1:15:04 AM): grrrrrrr *feel
xzilireight (1:15:30 AM): *feel????
xzilireight (1:15:32 AM): lol
Bane0164 (1:15:32 AM): ah well, to err is human, - can't remember
Bane0164 (1:15:58 AM): i keep saying fell, like i fell down the steps, feel, is like i feel love for you
xzilireight (1:16:08 AM): Oh! I just got that... I didn't even notice
xzilireight (1:16:26 AM): well, you fell for me and feel for me, right? so, it's all good
Bane0164 (1:16:37 AM): true enough
xzilireight (1:17:16 AM): For one human being to love another that is perhaps the most difficult of our tasks; the ultimate, the last test and proof; the work for which all other work is but preparation.
~ Rainer Maria Rilke
xzilireight (1:17:56 AM): All love that has not friendship for its base,
is like a mansion built upon the sand.
~ Ella Wheeler Wilcox
Bane0164 (1:17:59 AM): The second greatest thing on earth is to be loved. The greatest to love. - Can't Remember
xzilireight (1:18:16 AM): hmmmm beautiful
Bane0164 (1:18:24 AM): Well like i told you before we started going out, our friendship is very very important to me
xzilireight (1:18:54 AM): lol
xzilireight (1:19:01 AM): yes it is to me too
Bane0164 (1:19:04 AM): lol? why is that funny?
Bane0164 (1:19:32 AM): or did i miss something yet again, you know i am slow sometimes
xzilireight (1:19:59 AM): because, the reason I sent that quote to you is because I was thinking of the many times you told me how much our friendship means to you...duh
Bane0164 (1:20:20 AM): ah, see, i told you i was slow, you're going out with a nitwit
xzilireight (1:20:39 AM): ah, but I am yet dumber
Bane0164 (1:21:06 AM): No. . . , you know the joke
xzilireight (1:21:15 AM): ????
xzilireight (1:21:20 AM): confused
Bane0164 (1:21:22 AM): NO, YOUR NOT
Bane0164 (1:21:37 AM): from home star runner
xzilireight (1:22:27 AM): lol
xzilireight (1:23:28 AM): okay...that was random...Alex & comic stuff
xzilireight (1:23:33 AM): but yeah...
xzilireight (1:23:44 AM): yay for teen girl squad!!!
xzilireight (1:23:52 AM): sorry for screwing up the mood
Bane0164 (1:23:58 AM): *puts head down on arms*
xzilireight (1:24:01 AM): rar
xzilireight (1:24:07 AM): why?
Bane0164 (1:24:34 AM): cuz it felt like the right thing to do at the moment
xzilireight (1:24:41 AM): btw, I posted on my journal...check it out
xzilireight (1:24:46 AM): sorry!!!!!!!!!
xzilireight (1:24:58 AM): I'd kiss you right now if I could
Bane0164 (1:25:04 AM): and you didn't ruin the mood, we've gone in and out of it a few times, i happen to like how it flows from topic to topic
Bane0164 (1:25:08 AM): *kiss
xzilireight (1:25:14 AM): yay
xzilireight (1:25:18 AM): 8kiss
xzilireight (1:25:21 AM): *kiss
xzilireight (1:25:22 AM): rar
Bane0164 (1:25:32 AM): the s and 8 key are really far apart
xzilireight (1:26:00 AM): I meant to do a * but typed a8 instead...and they are the same button
Bane0164 (1:26:19 AM): much better much better
xzilireight (1:26:26 AM): blehhhh
xzilireight (1:26:32 AM): what is?
Bane0164 (1:26:33 AM): wow, why did i think there should have been an s their???
Bane0164 (1:26:36 AM): the color scheme
xzilireight (1:26:43 AM): oh...cool
xzilireight (1:26:46 AM): I like it too
Bane0164 (1:28:19 AM): on that note, a couple people have asked me what i feel for you, do you mind if i send them a copy of this, since i think this is a good indicator
xzilireight (1:28:36 AM): no, not at all
Bane0164 (1:28:44 AM): sweet
xzilireight (1:28:49 AM): except that it shows how stupid I am
Bane0164 (1:28:51 AM): and i read your journal
xzilireight (1:28:52 AM): rar
xzilireight (1:29:06 AM): oh...any comments or questions?
Bane0164 (1:29:11 AM): like i said earlier, your quirky
Bane0164 (1:29:24 AM): i replied to your journal if thats what you mean
xzilireight (1:29:34 AM): quirky=stupid...see
xzilireight (1:29:34 AM): lol
Bane0164 (1:30:02 AM): no quirky (no special key for not equal) stupid
Bane0164 (1:30:20 AM): no quirky (equal sign with slash through it) stupid
xzilireight (1:30:22 AM): quirk ( P ) Pronunciation Key (kwûrk)
n.
A peculiarity of behavior; an idiosyncrasy: “Every man had his own quirks and twists” (Harriet Beecher Stowe).
An unpredictable or unaccountable act or event; a vagary: a quirk of fate.
A sudden sharp turn or twist.
An equivocation; a quibble.
Architecture. A lengthwise groove on a molding between the convex upper part and the soffit.
Bane0164 (1:30:42 AM): Architecture. A lengthwise groove on a molding between the convex upper part and the soffit. , that one
xzilireight (1:30:53 AM): yep!
xzilireight (1:30:54 AM): lol
Bane0164 (1:31:21 AM): well thats not the way i was using it, but i didn't know the true definition
xzilireight (1:32:18 AM): well, you get a little smarter every day...and stupider...but maybe thats just me
xzilireight (1:32:23 AM): lol
Bane0164 (1:32:49 AM): i learn something new everyday, yes
xzilireight (1:32:58 AM): like?
Bane0164 (1:33:36 AM): actually, by trying to put into words for so long today what i feel about you, i have a better understanding of what i do feel, even though i still can't put it into words
Bane0164 (1:34:04 AM): i also learned that grandads parents house burned down one time and they lived in a barn for two years, this was before he was born
Bane0164 (1:34:17 AM): and had a little tour and history lesson along pouncy tract road
xzilireight (1:34:41 AM): sweet
xzilireight (1:34:55 AM): I wish I were with you on the tour
Bane0164 (1:34:55 AM): and i learned what was wrong with my car
xzilireight (1:35:00 AM): yay!
xzilireight (1:35:01 AM): lol
xzilireight (1:35:05 AM): vroom vroom
Bane0164 (1:35:21 AM): no, thats the other car, the buick is more like, put put
xzilireight (1:35:38 AM): lol
xzilireight (1:36:03 AM): Dignity consists not in possessing honors, but in the consciousness that we deserve them.
Aristotle
xzilireight (1:36:11 AM): put put
xzilireight (1:37:28 AM): Find the person who will love you because of your differences and
not in spite of them and you have found a lover for life.
~ Leo Buscaglia
because I am weird....yay
Bane0164 (1:37:55 AM): the consciousness that we deserve them, yay, go people with inflated heads
xzilireight (1:38:16 AM): oh shut up
Bane0164 (1:38:26 AM): fine, ill just keep typing stuff
xzilireight (1:38:35 AM): yay
Bane0164 (1:38:58 AM): stuff
Bane0164 (1:38:59 AM): stuff
xzilireight (1:40:49 AM): rar
Bane0164 (1:41:02 AM): ???
Bane0164 (1:41:05 AM): *kiss
Bane0164 (1:41:06 AM): I love you
xzilireight (1:41:19 AM): What of soul was left, I wonder, when the kissing had to stop?
~ Robert Browning
xzilireight (1:41:23 AM): I love you more
xzilireight (1:41:25 AM): ha
xzilireight (1:41:44 AM): a peach is a peach
a plum is a plum
a kiss ain't a kiss without some tongue
... so open up your mouth
and close your eyes
and give your tongue some exercise...
~ Diesel
lol
xzilireight (1:41:47 AM): lol
Bane0164 (1:41:53 AM): if AIM would let me i would send you this entire conversation and let you decide how much i love you
xzilireight (1:42:13 AM): kisses are a better fate
than wisdom.
~ e. e. cummings
Bane0164 (1:42:13 AM): seems like good advice
xzilireight (1:42:21 AM): lol
Bane0164 (1:42:50 AM): *kiss, while exercising the tongue
xzilireight (1:42:56 AM): love cannot be weighed, my sweet...and that in itself is a blessing
xzilireight (1:43:01 AM): yes yes
xzilireight (1:43:15 AM): we must have a healthy tounge
xzilireight (1:43:23 AM): blehhhhh
Bane0164 (1:43:24 AM): i agree
xzilireight (1:43:37 AM): yay
xzilireight (1:44:11 AM): The moment eternal - just that and no more -
When ecstasy's utmost we clutch at the core
While cheeks burn, arms open, eyes shut, and lips meet!
~ Robert Browning
Bane0164 (1:45:00 AM): and then the knock at the door comes and we jump