coming back to the way it used to be...
Ok, well in the last entry, I talked about a guy in my dorm, T.B., well last night I got to talk with him again. This time I was the one talking though. I told him about my life and where I have been. I told him everything. It didnt seem like he was understanding all I was telling him, so I got to the point of why I wanted to talk to him again. I told him about my relationship with God, and I told him that it has been a struggle being here with all the freedom in the world. He started understanding. I told him about how it was back home and about the awesome church that I had, and all the amazing christian friends I had. I told him that since I have been here, my faith has fallen, but it has not diminished and that I still live for one person, God. I asked him if he had ever went to church or if he had ever accepted Christ before, and this is what he said to me.
Back home I used to go to a church, but never really got attached like you have. There was not that many teenagers where I am from that really went to church to grow in their faith. The only reason we would go is because our parents would make us go. I mean sure I learned a lot, and yes I believe that there is a God, but I have never really handed my life over to Him. There are many things that have happened in my life that had to have come from above. I know that He looks after us and all, but I just dont think that I could ever receive His grace due to all of the bad things that I have done in my life.
I stopped him right there. I told him that it doesnt matter how many bad things you have done in life, because God forgave all of our sins they day He let His own son die for us. I told him that we are all human and all of us will sin. I told him that even being a christian does not mean that you dont sin, because we do, I do. Sin is inescapable, but if you have God in your heart, if you live your life for God, and you go to Him for forgiveness when you do sin, then nothing in this world can stop you. I told T.B. that no one is worthy of God's grace, but He gives it to us freely, as long as we have Him in our heart.
He just looked at me for a minute, then said that on one has ever said anything like that before to him. He looked down at the floor, and then looked back up and said, "Andrew, my nigga, I want to have God in my life. I want to start living for the Lord, and do the right things. I want to be your brother in Christ." I could not believe my ears at first. It was amazing to me that he said that, because I was not really expecting him to say anything of the sort, I just wanted to let him know exactly who I am, and what I live for, before we left. I looked him in the eyes, and I knew that he was for real. I told him ok, and we sat down in the day room, and I prayed over him first and thanked God for him, and what he has done in my life without even know it. Then I told him to pray aloud on his own, and ask God to come into his life. After he finished, he looked over at me and he had some tears in his eyes, and he thank you. He stood up and he gave me a little handshake, and gave me a pat on the back. Then we went to our separate dorms.
I really do hope that he continues to live for the Lord when he goes back home. He is not returning next semester, so this is the last time that I will see him for a while. I am sure that we will see each other again someday, whether it be here on Earth, or up in Heaven.
Back home I used to go to a church, but never really got attached like you have. There was not that many teenagers where I am from that really went to church to grow in their faith. The only reason we would go is because our parents would make us go. I mean sure I learned a lot, and yes I believe that there is a God, but I have never really handed my life over to Him. There are many things that have happened in my life that had to have come from above. I know that He looks after us and all, but I just dont think that I could ever receive His grace due to all of the bad things that I have done in my life.
I stopped him right there. I told him that it doesnt matter how many bad things you have done in life, because God forgave all of our sins they day He let His own son die for us. I told him that we are all human and all of us will sin. I told him that even being a christian does not mean that you dont sin, because we do, I do. Sin is inescapable, but if you have God in your heart, if you live your life for God, and you go to Him for forgiveness when you do sin, then nothing in this world can stop you. I told T.B. that no one is worthy of God's grace, but He gives it to us freely, as long as we have Him in our heart.
He just looked at me for a minute, then said that on one has ever said anything like that before to him. He looked down at the floor, and then looked back up and said, "Andrew, my nigga, I want to have God in my life. I want to start living for the Lord, and do the right things. I want to be your brother in Christ." I could not believe my ears at first. It was amazing to me that he said that, because I was not really expecting him to say anything of the sort, I just wanted to let him know exactly who I am, and what I live for, before we left. I looked him in the eyes, and I knew that he was for real. I told him ok, and we sat down in the day room, and I prayed over him first and thanked God for him, and what he has done in my life without even know it. Then I told him to pray aloud on his own, and ask God to come into his life. After he finished, he looked over at me and he had some tears in his eyes, and he thank you. He stood up and he gave me a little handshake, and gave me a pat on the back. Then we went to our separate dorms.
I really do hope that he continues to live for the Lord when he goes back home. He is not returning next semester, so this is the last time that I will see him for a while. I am sure that we will see each other again someday, whether it be here on Earth, or up in Heaven.