Ironically, I have been having much similar feelings lately about updating in my journal... hence the sparseness in actually posting much of anything lately. You took the words right out of my mouth, once again. ;)
Your posts are at the same time both far more prolific and far more organized/well-articulated on the whole than the stuff I write in my LJ, and for that reason I imagine the psychic drain on you has to get pretty intense at times! It's odd -- I feel both burned out, as far as certain aspects of LiveJournaling is concerned, and like a sort of renaissance is going on in others. I think this new age-flagging of content really pushed me into thinking harder about just what the hell I want to get out of this whole thing.
I do know that having a baby has definitely made me focus on what I get out of everything I engage myself in, and not just because of time constraints, either.
if you are by nature deep, then why spread yourself thinly? if complexity is appealing, why rush to simplify...
Thank you for reminding me of this, Paul. Like most people, I would venture to guess, I go through periods of expansion and contraction, expansion and contraction. I lot of my time on LJ has been expansive. I tried to reach out, make connections with others, as well as not focus too obsessively and perfectionistically on just a few of my pet interests. Now that I feel I'm a bit more "well-rounded" psychically, it's time for me to focus on my "preferred areas of study," so to speak, and continue to deepen my understanding of them.
Burned out is the perfect way I have been feeling about it lately. I miss the times where I could just let loose my thoughts in my LJ. Nowadays I have to hold my tongue either due to whom I am writing about or the subject matter. It's very frustrating for me, especially so since for as long as I can remember (6th grade maybe?), I used my journal to release any sort of stress out of me. Now I have either had to resort to private entries or write in a paper journal or bottle up things I needed to get out of my system. Unfortunately due to time, the latter has been the current solution. :(
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I do know that having a baby has definitely made me focus on what I get out of everything I engage myself in, and not just because of time constraints, either.
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wise.
if you are by nature deep, then why spread yourself thinly? if complexity is appealing, why rush to simplify...
you should [re]shape the journal to suit yourself.
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Thank you for reminding me of this, Paul. Like most people, I would venture to guess, I go through periods of expansion and contraction, expansion and contraction. I lot of my time on LJ has been expansive. I tried to reach out, make connections with others, as well as not focus too obsessively and perfectionistically on just a few of my pet interests. Now that I feel I'm a bit more "well-rounded" psychically, it's time for me to focus on my "preferred areas of study," so to speak, and continue to deepen my understanding of them.
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