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Im not sure if dylan still reads this....we are hoping not :-/ but what can we do we must write. This hole situation is really frustrating. I mean at first its a breka up then the next day its a break then a break up again and now a break with a 25% chance of getting back together. WHAT THE HELL. i mean yeah im glad theres a chance we'll get back together and yeah i think this is the best thing right now.I think he ignored me at school today on purpose tho. Which isnt cool seeing how he was the one all i still want to be friends. Friends dont ignore each other. and maybe he didnt. but i needed to get my shit out of his locker today after school and i dont remember the combo and so i went to the spot where we meet usually and he never went by there or his locker....hmmmm....also after 2nd im almost positive that he took a different route to avoid me :-/ . I mean is it that bad to see me guys? am i that replusing? which is why i dont know if this break thing is real or him just trying not to hurt me. I think he needs to figure out shit on his own. And thats fine with me and i encourage it but i dont get the point in being rude to me in the process. And the day we broke up he was the one who wanted to hang out and shit and then i hear form someone else he didnt even want to..then why the hell make plans. That person could be lieing....but thats not quit the way hes acting. so i mena id like to hang out with him occasionally so we dont lose out friendship along with everything else and theres more of a chacne to get back together.....but if he doesnt want to thats fine i just want to know. Everything he says to me contrdicts each other and i dont know. However im alot clearer after last night and the percential. well not really that but yeha. And i thought we had a good conversation.SO maybe everythings gunna get better from here even if it is only friends. I just want things to settle down, take the drama away, take the tears away, and just hang out as friends. Thats all i want rigth now. geesh. okay wow well this was me goign in circles about a boy. And im just glad we are kinda still talking to each other. And i mean if he doesnt want to speak to me in public then um i gues i am just really that fucking repulsing.(i knew it he alwasy just lied saying i was pretty ;-) )
Today sucked but not for the reasons i thought. Only daniel keep talking to me about dylan over and over. Everyone else just let it be. Which was nice. And the sucky part was its school. BLAH. And work in um 30 minutes. I feel bad for jackie b.c she has to finish teh bridge today with out me. IM sorry baby.
HAve you every heard of a girl getting dumb for the way she pms'ed well it happend guys. The reason i was so damn emotional the past week. YEAH that was it. Found out yesterday. Isnt that just lovely.