*light goes on*
Wow. I think I had an an..epiphany? I think thats the word im looking for anyway. So im driving on Olive and it leads my thoughts to a friend who lives off that street. WHich leads me to think of all the shit Ive been through in these last couple months and it was just like ding! I think I know why all this happened. If you look at the bigger picture you realize that more was gained than lost. Ive learned so much about myself in the past few months than I ever have before (that sounds corny but oh well). Granted, I hurt a lot of people, and hurt them bad, in the process but I think the main people I hurt gained more than they lost. I really thought about that during my drive. I dunno I could be wrong but in my mind it was like He wanted all this too happened. It made me realize who I am and what I want outta life, who I want to be. And if I'm seeing things as clearly as they are in my mind right now then the other major people involved have changed a lot too for the better. It's like He wanted me to do this in order to make my life to have more meaning and make more sense and show others a little bit more about who they are. Like he wanted me to help them while I was helping myself. hmmmmm I think this may take a little more thought and I might sound a little nuts right about now but it just seems like all the fog has lifted away and I can see again.