stalkbrowsing
Browsing the intertubespace of livejournal led me to a comment about love persisting through the time a couple can't see, or even talk to, eachother. Time for disjointed thoughts on the subject!
There are so many myths on the strength and persistance of love, how it can be eternal. When I try to comb my mind over for real life stories, the search yields nothing. I'm sure I've heard some, but nothing that has stuck. No stories like that apply to anyone I know. No one in my family, none of my friends, although a couple are working on it. But we're still so young, it can always fall through. I still don't know why it did for me. The journal I read was written by a guy who may be able to see his girlfriend once a month. Maybe more, maybe less. I still think that's pretty damn good.. I went two or three at times, but my love never faded. ..his did. (Aside: Well, that's probably because he decided to start screwing someone else while I was away.) Why is that? We talked a couple of times a week, at least. People used to make relationships survive through four years of college just through letter correspondence. You know, a letter every two weeks, and I'll see you in the summer. Now we have so many forms of communication just by the phone and internet alone, and people still fail. My high school's senior prom is either tonight or next week, and I was supposed to go. That's what we thought last summer, anyway, but just a few months apart and our "true love" relationship crumbled pathetically under the weight of distance. (Again, aside: screwing someone else while I was away wasn't exactly doing everything you could to keep the flame alive. But dammit, what made you start?) ...Seriously, why couldn't we do it?
I guess there was no way to pick this topic to write about and avoid thinking about the stuff that's happened to me in regards to my love life this past year. Sorry to clutter your browsers with junk like this, ugh.
I suppose I can make it worthwhile by asking for your input on the subject. Do you believe love can stand the test of prolonged distance? I used to. Now I have this new relationship despite all of my hurt, all the reasons I have to distrust men. And now we'll separate for the summer, and I wonder if such a new relationship can survive where my first, purest, deepest love failed.