bored
i hate having nothing to do it really sucks. i haven;t had anything to do since school let out, the only place i;ve gone is to Lil horties house. i;m not complaining about going there or anything i just hate sitting around all day waiting for something to do b/c he works like a bazzillion hours a week. when nothings going on my brain starts thinking and thats bad. latly i;ve been on this college kick. i;m getting worried that everyone;s going to get into college except me. I;ve tried hard for a while to take hard classes and be smart so i can eventually get out of this house. but it;s all because of stupid math that i might not get out. the college i want to go to has strick standards and even though i;m well withing the criteria everywhere else my math is seriously lacking. i donlt know what i;m goign to do. i dont want to go to HCC. i know it;s a good school but i think i;ve worked hard enough to get into westfield state or Umass. Then theres this whole ting with my being unemployed. i need a job. my parents refuse to help me with my car insurance or my liscence and registration so i have to be able to afford it before i can get it. i was supposed to work on the base like i did last summer but that didn;t happen they decided to hire college students and veterans so i;m S.O.L. as of right now. i don't know what i'm going to do. senior year hasn;t even started yet and i;m already having issues. Lastly i was hoping some time away from the band would help all involved to calm down but man was i wrong. Nothings getting better everyone is just as mad as when they left it and i don't think i can handle all the crap from last year over again, actually i know i can;t . i know i'm not that strong. o well i;m gonna stop bitching now and go ...