Sweet Disposition

[banditprincess]

Don't know what's up with me today. All I can think about is summer; my perfect summer. The summer I left the job I hated. The summer I spent being a selfish child, laughing and smiling all day, most every day. The summer I learned how to be beautiful. Confident. The sun tasted so sweet this year. There were a few skinned knees, physically and emotionally, but I'm okay now.

All day I've been feeling so overwhelmed emotionally. Despite being a perfectly relaxed day. I just sat around, smoked gently all day so I didn't lose time in a haze. I read a bit, worked out, danced. I listened to music and I remembered good things.

sweet disposition
never too soon
oh reckless abandon
like no one's
watching you

a moment, a love
a dream, a laugh
a kiss, a cry
our rights, our wrongs
a moment, a love
a dream, a laugh
a moment, a love
a dream, a laugh

just stay there
cause i'll be comin over
and while our bloods still young
it's so young
it runs
and we won't stop til it's over
won't stop to surrender

songs of desperation
I played them for you
a moment, a love
a dream, a laugh
a kiss, a cry
our rights, our wrongs
a moment, a love
a dream, a laugh
a moment, a love
a dream, a laugh

just stay there
cause i'll be comin over
and while our bloods still young
it's so young
it runs
and we won't stop til it's over
won't stop to surrender

a moment, a love
a dream, a laugh
a kiss, a cry
our rights, our wrongs (won't stop til it's over)
a moment, a love
a dream, a laugh
a kiss, a cry
our rights, our wrongs(won't stop til it's over)
a moment, a love
a dream, a laugh
a kiss, a cry
our rights, our wrongs (won't stop til it's over)
a moment, a love
a dream, a laugh
a moment, a love
a moment, a love (won't stop to surrender)

This song is my summer. I miss my summer. My 5 month summer. I miss the smell of the air, the sticky feeling on my skin, the light feeling my heart had when I look at the blue sky.

Lucky. That's how I felt this summer. So flippin' lucky.

I miss speeding along the seawall, on a rented or the BMX. I miss the cool air on a late night longboard.

I know I complained at the time, but I miss fucking outdoors.

Winter love is cosy and warm. It's slow and deliberate. Winter love is for old marrieds. I miss the way love feels in the summer. Love feels active and exciting then. You discover so much more in the summer. Even if we've been together for years, love still feels young in the summer, every summer.

I wonder what this coming one will have in store for me?

I hope it's adventure, I dream it's summer love,

I know it's anything I want it to be.