MDMA
So MDMA was a fun experience.
Not as mind-blowing as shrooms, but it was certainly a nice way to spend 12 hours.
I took approximately 312.5g over the course of that time, which made for a very chill, not overly high trip. The Mary J throughout probably helped to super-chill everything further. I felt fully in control of my body and mind, just really physically good. Next time I might try 250mg, split in two, see how that goes. Might be a stronger, shorter experience.
Mentally, I made note that my heart beat was noticeably faster. Like how you feel the minutes leading up to a date you've anxiously been waiting for. Like the moment right before a kiss. But, you know, for 12 hours.
A lot of jaw clenching, as well. At one point, clothes were fairly uncomfortable, so I had a shower (which was, not surprisingly, incredibly relaxing). I have never loved my microfiber bathrobe more than at that time.
Had some friends over, enjoyed some really free conversation. I struggle with social anxiety a lot more than people think, and it felt extremely liberating to talk to people with ease. I'm glad I was only alone for a few hours of the trip. Which was comprised mostly of solo dance parties.
Also, music was AMAZING all day. I ended up playing Calico Leaf on loop for nearly my whole trip. It was just absolutely perfect for how I felt.
Oddly enough, while my libido was fairly red hot, I didn't find myself uncontrollable, unlike my shrooms trip. Possibly because no one visiting me could be a viable partner. Efforts to take care of the matter myself proved fairly frustrating, because while incredibly horny, I had no interest in my usual pornography, or ANY porn for that matter. It was actually a turn off.
All I wanted was someone ELSE to touch me :/
Unfortunately, Devon chose to get stoned later in the evening and through careful observation, it's been determined that Devon is a complete asshat when he's baked and is therefore, no good to me sexually =_= I LOVE that my sweet babykat has decided to join me, and share the ganja experience with me, but damn. I hope he grows out of the herpaderp phase of smoking pot.
But no matter how herpaderp he is, I really am glad I get to share it with him now :)
ANYWAY!
Back to my MDMA "review".
Kevin came home at around dose 2 of 4 (at 62.5g). Very happy to see him. I quickly acquired his manly parts and enjoyed myself thoroughly. I can't say it was particularly wonderful. Certainly felt exceptionally good, but I do remember having a lot more sex when I did that E a long time ago...
Actually, that's pretty much all I have to say about it. Might try mixing it with shrooms, once I've become more accustomed/experienced to how both of those work in my body. Right now, I'm trying to be very responsible about my usage of this stuff, as I'm just as interested in its therapeutic properties as I am in their recreational.
Oh, a note on the come down.
The next day (As in 24 hours later), I felt okay, just tired. Later on, I noticed a complete lack in drive to do anything, in addition to general malaise. As long as I kept busy with light activities, I was fine, but I was still noticeably bummy.
48 hours later, I'm still feeling sorta blah physically, but I can't say I'm feeling down.
The need for recovery like this, pretty much ensures I won't be doing it too often. "Special occasions" haha. But that's good.
Very glad I had the experience. Thumbs uppu!
EDIT on 09/13/11
FUCK THAT SHIT.
Panic attacks like crazy, insane emotional imbalance, nauseous. This is no fun. I'm not sure if it's the large dose I took, or if it's just MDMA in general. But this sucks big time.
Not as mind-blowing as shrooms, but it was certainly a nice way to spend 12 hours.
I took approximately 312.5g over the course of that time, which made for a very chill, not overly high trip. The Mary J throughout probably helped to super-chill everything further. I felt fully in control of my body and mind, just really physically good. Next time I might try 250mg, split in two, see how that goes. Might be a stronger, shorter experience.
Mentally, I made note that my heart beat was noticeably faster. Like how you feel the minutes leading up to a date you've anxiously been waiting for. Like the moment right before a kiss. But, you know, for 12 hours.
A lot of jaw clenching, as well. At one point, clothes were fairly uncomfortable, so I had a shower (which was, not surprisingly, incredibly relaxing). I have never loved my microfiber bathrobe more than at that time.
Had some friends over, enjoyed some really free conversation. I struggle with social anxiety a lot more than people think, and it felt extremely liberating to talk to people with ease. I'm glad I was only alone for a few hours of the trip. Which was comprised mostly of solo dance parties.
Also, music was AMAZING all day. I ended up playing Calico Leaf on loop for nearly my whole trip. It was just absolutely perfect for how I felt.
Oddly enough, while my libido was fairly red hot, I didn't find myself uncontrollable, unlike my shrooms trip. Possibly because no one visiting me could be a viable partner. Efforts to take care of the matter myself proved fairly frustrating, because while incredibly horny, I had no interest in my usual pornography, or ANY porn for that matter. It was actually a turn off.
All I wanted was someone ELSE to touch me :/
Unfortunately, Devon chose to get stoned later in the evening and through careful observation, it's been determined that Devon is a complete asshat when he's baked and is therefore, no good to me sexually =_= I LOVE that my sweet babykat has decided to join me, and share the ganja experience with me, but damn. I hope he grows out of the herpaderp phase of smoking pot.
But no matter how herpaderp he is, I really am glad I get to share it with him now :)
ANYWAY!
Back to my MDMA "review".
Kevin came home at around dose 2 of 4 (at 62.5g). Very happy to see him. I quickly acquired his manly parts and enjoyed myself thoroughly. I can't say it was particularly wonderful. Certainly felt exceptionally good, but I do remember having a lot more sex when I did that E a long time ago...
Actually, that's pretty much all I have to say about it. Might try mixing it with shrooms, once I've become more accustomed/experienced to how both of those work in my body. Right now, I'm trying to be very responsible about my usage of this stuff, as I'm just as interested in its therapeutic properties as I am in their recreational.
Oh, a note on the come down.
The next day (As in 24 hours later), I felt okay, just tired. Later on, I noticed a complete lack in drive to do anything, in addition to general malaise. As long as I kept busy with light activities, I was fine, but I was still noticeably bummy.
48 hours later, I'm still feeling sorta blah physically, but I can't say I'm feeling down.
The need for recovery like this, pretty much ensures I won't be doing it too often. "Special occasions" haha. But that's good.
Very glad I had the experience. Thumbs uppu!
EDIT on 09/13/11
FUCK THAT SHIT.
Panic attacks like crazy, insane emotional imbalance, nauseous. This is no fun. I'm not sure if it's the large dose I took, or if it's just MDMA in general. But this sucks big time.