i am a mommy!
this has to be the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me. what a struggle. what a pain. what a blessing! she looks like her daddy, even has his lazy eye, teehees. but she's got my crooked smile, hehe, so it's all good.
i do indeed have a story to tell, but i am tired...it may be a while before i recount, lol. a horrific encounter with epidural administration, ugh...lots of unsuccessful breastfeeding leading to painful, cracked, bleeding nipples due to the endless efforts of my little one followed by the sudden onset of milk production causing hardened, painful, big boobies. i am supplementing baby now with formula. my nipples need to heal for a bit, but i know lena misses nursing...she keeps trying to fall down toward my breasts, but my main concern is her gaining her weight back. luckily, she was 8lbs6ozs when she was born, so her losing a pound in hospital wasn't life-threatening. still, it was scary for me, made post-partum depression set in with thoughts that i couldn't provide for my baby and feed her...i felt like a horrible mother because my body wasn't responding to little lena's tremendous efforts. nate's loving support through my outbursts made me realize how lucky i am...and that he came around...he's been so sensitive toward me, i think i fell in love all over again! :)
one thing i have learned: breastfeeding is euphoric...i fall into a coma-like relaxation when my baby nurses...and usually fall asleep with her, lol. i haven't nursed in about 15 hours and i am missing it sooooo much! i've had to hot-rag my boobs a few times today to relieve the pressure and hardness. crazy stuff!
anywho...until i can get my pictures up and edited, here is the hospital's link to my baby's page. :) she looks just like her daddy...but he is cute, so that's fine with me, hehe! she's got a cap on in this, but she's got a full head of hair. and her ears and back are hairy, too, lol! nate told me that's a native american thing, lol!
My little NDN baby
i do indeed have a story to tell, but i am tired...it may be a while before i recount, lol. a horrific encounter with epidural administration, ugh...lots of unsuccessful breastfeeding leading to painful, cracked, bleeding nipples due to the endless efforts of my little one followed by the sudden onset of milk production causing hardened, painful, big boobies. i am supplementing baby now with formula. my nipples need to heal for a bit, but i know lena misses nursing...she keeps trying to fall down toward my breasts, but my main concern is her gaining her weight back. luckily, she was 8lbs6ozs when she was born, so her losing a pound in hospital wasn't life-threatening. still, it was scary for me, made post-partum depression set in with thoughts that i couldn't provide for my baby and feed her...i felt like a horrible mother because my body wasn't responding to little lena's tremendous efforts. nate's loving support through my outbursts made me realize how lucky i am...and that he came around...he's been so sensitive toward me, i think i fell in love all over again! :)
one thing i have learned: breastfeeding is euphoric...i fall into a coma-like relaxation when my baby nurses...and usually fall asleep with her, lol. i haven't nursed in about 15 hours and i am missing it sooooo much! i've had to hot-rag my boobs a few times today to relieve the pressure and hardness. crazy stuff!
anywho...until i can get my pictures up and edited, here is the hospital's link to my baby's page. :) she looks just like her daddy...but he is cute, so that's fine with me, hehe! she's got a cap on in this, but she's got a full head of hair. and her ears and back are hairy, too, lol! nate told me that's a native american thing, lol!
My little NDN baby