nostalgia is a punch in the face.

[bandgeekx3]

this is not a game. you cant make bets on people's emotions, risking losing it all, and then expect for a new hand of cards and for things to be fine. i am a loose thread that hangs on forever, and i always manage to avoid the scissors. i cant let go. i will always be here, breathing in my pathetic attempts, living in this nauseating repetition. every disappointment is so predictable.

basically, being conscious sucks.