A silly sort of sickness.
I have been vomiting on and off for the past month or so. My stomach refuses to settle and my heart refuses to calm. Everything is slowly falling apart again and I have less control than ever. I am scared and I can't let anyone know. I guess I should have seen all of this coming. Win the battle and lose the war, right? I haven't had contact with friends in weeks. I don't think they could understand or relate. My situation is just not normal and I wouldn't expect them to. I need to get as far away from this as possible. I will be moving within the next few months (hopefully August) and I will try to start everything over. Until then, contact with friends and family that I am not especially attached to will be brief and limited. I need time to concentrate on doing this properly. Have a little faith, please.
-tina
-tina