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I'm not always good with words and I tend to laugh when I'm nervous. I usually wait for the guy to make the first move because I don't want come off too strong. I won't always say what's on my mind unless I'm inebriated and even then I'm selective. I tend to put myself down on and second guess myself as well, but I'm working on that day by day. I'm used to being disappointed by guys and I've had my heart broken a few times because when I care about someone I put my whole self into it. I don't have my walls up as much as I have in the past, but they're still there. I know I'm not perfect and I have my selfish moments, but I try and not show you that side. I'm an emotional person and I'm fragile so I take a lot of things personal, but that doesn't mean I can't joke around. If I say something hurtful with my comment full of sarcasm just know it's not intentional.
Whenever you mention something new to do or just want to chill it makes me smile. I may not always have the enthusiasm behind it even if I'm happy, but just know that spending time with you in any shape or form always brightens my day. Also whenever you compliment me I get uncomfortable because I know you're not just saying it cause you're my bf you do mean it, but with my low self esteem I deny it. I know it bums you out when I'm down on myself, but know that I love whatever cute things you say to me and if I don't say a compliment back it's because I'm still shy and saying cute things makes me nervous. I'm better giving compliments in writing or over the phone. I want to tell you all the time that I love you and am so lucky to have you in my life, but again it's the shyness and me not wanting the I love you to wear thin. Also you know I love you even when I don't say it because I feel it in my heart 24/7. I apologize in advance for my flirty side. I don't do it to make you jealous or to be a slut, but it's me and if guys do talk to me I always tell them I have a bf (if you're not around) and if you are i tell them how lucky I am to be with you because I am. You treat me with respect and love. You always have my best interest at heart and you make the effort. You don't want to hear about my past which warms my heart because my past isn't the prettiest and I don't want to open your ex-file.
I don't want you to feel I'm dependent on you because I have my independent side, but with the no job life means I don't go out as much unless I'm with you or it's the weekend and even then I might stay home. Once I have a job again I'll go out on my own a lot more and I can show you material wise that I appreciate you even though I know I don't have too, but I want too because you've been there for me in such a short amount of time and you're becoming one of my best friends.
The other night when we went out I just looked at you and the love I have for you was validated. I'm proud to call you mine and you're a grown ass man which is the sexiest thing to me. I'm so proud of you in whatever you're doing currently or want to do. You're gonna make something of yourself and I just feel bad that I'm slackin right now, but I'll be back at the top of my game in no time.
I love you babe and I'm excited to see what the future holds for us :]
Whenever you mention something new to do or just want to chill it makes me smile. I may not always have the enthusiasm behind it even if I'm happy, but just know that spending time with you in any shape or form always brightens my day. Also whenever you compliment me I get uncomfortable because I know you're not just saying it cause you're my bf you do mean it, but with my low self esteem I deny it. I know it bums you out when I'm down on myself, but know that I love whatever cute things you say to me and if I don't say a compliment back it's because I'm still shy and saying cute things makes me nervous. I'm better giving compliments in writing or over the phone. I want to tell you all the time that I love you and am so lucky to have you in my life, but again it's the shyness and me not wanting the I love you to wear thin. Also you know I love you even when I don't say it because I feel it in my heart 24/7. I apologize in advance for my flirty side. I don't do it to make you jealous or to be a slut, but it's me and if guys do talk to me I always tell them I have a bf (if you're not around) and if you are i tell them how lucky I am to be with you because I am. You treat me with respect and love. You always have my best interest at heart and you make the effort. You don't want to hear about my past which warms my heart because my past isn't the prettiest and I don't want to open your ex-file.
I don't want you to feel I'm dependent on you because I have my independent side, but with the no job life means I don't go out as much unless I'm with you or it's the weekend and even then I might stay home. Once I have a job again I'll go out on my own a lot more and I can show you material wise that I appreciate you even though I know I don't have too, but I want too because you've been there for me in such a short amount of time and you're becoming one of my best friends.
The other night when we went out I just looked at you and the love I have for you was validated. I'm proud to call you mine and you're a grown ass man which is the sexiest thing to me. I'm so proud of you in whatever you're doing currently or want to do. You're gonna make something of yourself and I just feel bad that I'm slackin right now, but I'll be back at the top of my game in no time.
I love you babe and I'm excited to see what the future holds for us :]