wishin'
i can't get attached, but it's getting hard. i hate having to act as though i don't care cause i do, but you're leaving so i have to let go. i want to talk to you all the time, but if i do then i'll just get more attached and i need to venture away from that. i'll be with you until you leave, but it's not gonna be easy to see you go. i wish things could be different and i could tell you all of this, but for me it's just easier to be distant. it's not life or death and you probably don't feel the same which makes it harder, but i'll deal. i've done it before and i can do it again. i wish i hadn't put bullshit on you in the beginning because you deserve more than that, but i can't take it back now. i know we still have time to see each other, but time is flying by. maybe i don't a right to miss you, but i will. it'll be okay and we're both going to be doing our own thing so is what it is. everything happens for a reason.
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