I'm in love with this boy...
I just realized that.
When I saw him tonight, and my whole day just got even brighter.
When he kissed me, and I didn't care that his whole family was there. I was just happy it was him, and me, together.
And now I'm sitting here. And it's hitting me.
I'm in love with this boy.
And I don't know how it happened, and I don't know why.
All I know is that I'm scared outta my fucking mind.
I'm scared of getting hurt. I'm scared of fucking things up. I'm scared of losing him. I'm scared of being used. I'm scared of him leaving. I'm scared of losing him. I'm scared of not being good enough for him. I'm scared of everything.
But mostly, I'm scared of never feeling the same way as I do when I'm with him ever again in my life.