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So I have come to the conclusion that my new favorite quote is "To get big rewards, you gotta take big risks." Hearing it actually makes me think...will I ever get that big reward? I am so scared to leave. Everyone else is excited....is there something wrong with me? Should I be more excited? I cant help it. I really dont want to leave. I want everything to go back....back to how it used to be. I am so sick of college and I haven't even started. Sick of wondering if I have everything I am going to need, if I am ever going to see half of the people here in Elgin ever again, if anyone actually cares that I am leaving or if they are putting up a front. I mean I know there are a few people who actually do care that I am leaving. Thank you to those people who do. But, will anyone notice? I am sure that I am not the only who feels this way....at least I hope not. Am I crazy? I get to leave the house, get away from rules, get away from Elgin, and live like I want to. What a great life, right? Too many, yes. I am deathly afraid. Will they like me? Will I make friends? Did I take the right classes? How will the classes be? Hard? Easy? I dont know what to think....all I know is that in 10 days....I will be leaving. To start a new life. To take that big risk I was talking about.....at least I am only 40 minutes away, right? The one question I have is...will I get my big reward?