what the crap man...
okay .. so i've been thinking .. about things i've said .. things i should have ... and i realize i'm a little immature teenager .. yes i do like AJ .. but you see .. i'm 'too afraid to say anything' .. so everyday i end up hating myself .. cause i could have said something but no.. that's going to change .. i'm done being a pansy .. i don't give a shit if i make a complete ass of myself .. when i'm with my friends i always make an ass out of myself .. and i don't care .. why should it bother me any other time .. i no longer care what people think .. why should i .. i want to go back to when i would start up a casual conversation with a random person .. why i stopped that i don't know .. maybe i was 'too good for them' ... fuck that .. i've been shy towards people... but that's got to stop .. it misses ME off the way I act .. or don't act .. true i don't haeva chnace with (person above) .. but ya know what that's okay ... i'm going to be all emo and cry over it .. i don't mind being friends .. it's all good .. but that will never happen if .. 'i'm afraid'... some people need to make up their minds if theya re going to ignore me or not .. everyother day this person is mad .. the other days she's like .. ooh mel hi .. so it PISSES me off that you can't make up your frigging mind!... now that i have rambled on for a few minutes now .. about useless stuff that NO ONE cares about .. but you .. i'm being myself .. and hey look .. i made an ass out of myself .. and HA .. i don't care .. mission accomplished
Mel
Mel