can you fail at life? if so, i just did
well, i have decided that people arent worth the energy spent & i should find a nice rock to make friends with. that way, i dont have to worry about losing another friend like i have before. ive decided that i suck at friendships/relationships. i think im too wrapped up in myself & that when i realize such a problem, it's too late & they are already gone. let's face it, i suck at life. some people have said that it's my "vices" that make me a bad person but i think it's actually the fact that i just plain suck. i think there are larger issues here other than my "vices" that people should be more concerned about. i can see it now...as soon as all my college friends move away, im not gunna talk to them because thats the pattern of life i have apparently chosen for myself. although there have been some truly meaningful relationships in my life, i just cant seem to hold on to them. no matter how important they are to me...they end up slipping away. & i dont realize til it's too late & then i end up blaming myself & saying that i suck at life. which is whats happening right now. i push people away, how intelligent of me. congratulations carey, here's a freakin rock. enjoy your life.