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[bandersnatch125]

so i was talking to a friend of mine tonight & she was trying to convince me to do something im not sure im quite ready to do...& not sure that if i do, it'll work. i have realized something about myself over the past few weeks. & that is, im tired of playing. ive had 3 "serious" relationships (serious being defined in my own terms of course) & i have come to the realization that im tired of playing with everything. i want a man...someone who is thinking like me, someone who is ready to make the same decisions as me, someone who is ready for committment to something greater than tomorrow. oh & i dont mean to slight anyone that i may have dated that may be reading this...you helped me reach this point in my life & i thank you for whatever lessons i learned from you. & i wish you the best. so here is the conversation that followed...

Me: i want a man...
C: lol
C: a manfriend
Me: yup
Me: well...
Me: ive had a boy who was a boy, a man who thought he was a boy, & a boy who thought he was a man
Me: now i want a man who is a man
Me: so therefore, hence why i wait & think so hard i give time for my man to grow into more of a man & less of a boy. bc im tired of fooling around, im ready for something serious & actually committed to something beyond tomorrow.
C: fair enough
Me: i mean, it's nice to play & to say stuff but after a while, you too will come to a time when this happens & u just want something a little more sturdy than promises