something not sure what
it's one of those days...i can feel it...not sure what causes such days but today was one of my bad days...one of my schizo days. one of my bad schizo days, not a happy one. one where my thoughts get to me & i feel sad cause i remember all that has happened. not cool...i wish i wouldnt have these days. i was doing fine, having normal happy days but all of a sudden, i get sad & im depressed. i guess it has to do with the depression that i am in & havent been able to shake. ive been in it since sean got that girl & although outwardly i seem to be fine & happy, inside im depressed & sprialing downwards. it has to do with the levels of dopamine in my brain that get off balance. so i decided to come home. for my fall break. i think that the change in atmosphere might be good...see everyone again. even though it will be me closer to the center of all my problems. but itll be good, force me to face up instead of run away. we shall see, it could be good or bad...either way im coming home...hopefully i can make it through the next few weeks without anymore depression or bad schizo days.