duck ankles
We just moved my brother back to school this past Saturday. Made me realize just how weird it is that I'm not going back to school. As ready as I was to be done with school, I'm kinda sad that I'm not going back. I'm certainly not gonna miss all the work and stuff, but I'm gonna miss hanging out with friends and such. Being on my own, meeting new people, making friendships, etc. I'm kinda sad though because I don't think I let myself have the full college experience. I hate that I am still so reserved and nervous and shy and stuff. I could have let myself get a lot closer to the people I hung out with, but I didn't. I was too focused on how I felt, and how nervous I was a lot of times in social situations, that I just kept myself clammed up and didn't let people get to know me. I could have been such a better friend. I have come to realize recently just how selfish I can be. I am too focused on myself, and I hate that about myself. I guess I just want my friends to know (if they still read this) that I do care about them, I just am very bad at showing it. And I deeply appreciate all the times they invited me to stuff, and tried to include me. I definitely have some good memories from college. I still have the deer my friends signed and gave me for my birthday. Haha. Named him Dale. Dale, the legless deer. :-P Ahh, good times, good times. And the times we went to GhostRiders. That was sooo much fun! I don't have many friends here at home, so it's not nearly as exciting as at school, but it hasn't been to bad. I've actually had a pretty good summer, going to all these awesome concerts. I can't complain about life too much.
And I am also going to be getting more involved in my church. I'm gonna be a small group leader for the 2nd graders children's church. I'm really looking forward to that! It should be a lot of fun. And hopefully I will also be getting involved with the worship team.
Ya know how sometimes you just need a change? I finally cleared out my room today. It looks really nice. Hopefully this weekend I can go through my desk and get rid of a lot of stuff, and actually be able to sell my desk. I wanna get a book case. It will take up a lot less space in my room than a desk, and I have a lot of books and stuff that it would be really helpful if I could put on a bookcase. I went shopping and got a new pair of sheets (they're really fun) and I printed out a picture (my new icon (cross) ) and got a frame for it, so I'm gonna hang that up on my wall. That's actually a picture I took when we were on our way home from VA/DE...concert and beach. We were driving through these mountains, and the sun was setting. My mom has a little wooden cross hanging on her rearview mirror and I was sitting in the backseat, cramped up and bored. So I grabbed the camera and decided it would be cool to try and get a picture of the cross right in front of the sun. it was really hard cuz we kept going around all these bends and stuff. I must have taken 50 pics or so. I'm glad I did, though, cuz at least a couple turned out really well, this being the best. I think it'll look great on my wall. I also wanna get some glow in the dark paint and paint stars on my ceiling. Not little 5-point stars, just little dots. I want it to look like I'm always sleeping under the stars. I also want to get some of those hanging beads (hippie beads?) and hang them from my door. Oh, I also changed my LJ layout. Going along with the need for change.
Duck Ankles is the actual name of a song, in case anyone is wondering. I actually have it stuck in my head right now. It's by David Sanborn, jazz alto sax player. I saw him in concert a couple weeks ago. What a great ocncert! Got to meet him and talk to him a bit afterwards. That was cool. Told him I was a sax player. He told me about one show when he went through 5 reeds. Said he just wanted to commiserate with someone who would understand what he was talking about. Haha. I was like, "yeah, reeds are definitely a pain in the butt". This guy has been making records since the 70s, and he has at least 20 records, and I just had this normal conversation with him. It was so cool! He's very charismatic and friendly, very engaging. So then the next week I went and bought like 6 of his CDs (already had one) from amazon. I got them all used, so they were pretty inexpensive. I'm really loving them. I'm still torn about taking sax lessons. I'm still gonna buy a used sax from Volkweins. I can still do some playing on my own, but there's so much to learn that I prolly can't figure out on my own. I wanna keep my dream, and pursue it, to become a better musician, but I don't know if that's being too unrealistic. But hey, all these people that are recording artists and stuff now were prolly told all the time they were being unrealistic. LOL. I don't think I'm good enough though, at least not yet, to perform anywhere. I'd be more than happy to just play little clubs and stuff in my town. I've decided that what I want to do is open my own music store, but it would be a jazz store. And I would also like it to be an art store. Sell art supplies, as well as local artist's work. I think that would be so cool to have a store like that! It might happen, ya never know. I could take some business classes, maybe go back to grad school at some point and get a business degree.
But the more I think about it, I would love to be married. Have a nice little settled life. I dunno, maybe I'm not ready to be married yet. I'd be happy with a boyfriend though. I'm just a simple girl, I just want someone to hold hands and walk with, someone to talk to, etc. Someday, I hope. Although now that I'm not in school, I don't know where I will meet people. I'm sure I will, it just seems a little bit harder. And hey, according to Dr. Thompson, there's always alumni events. Hahaha. Something about "leftovers" as I recall. Yeah, interesting.
In other news, I'm going to another concert this Sunday. Eric Tessemer. Amazing guitar player. Plays a lot like Stevie Ray Vaughn, if that means anything to anyone. And also, the job is going pretty well. The woman I work with told me the other day that I'm starting to get the hang of things. Yay! It can be a little overwhelming at times, though. There's just so much to learn. I get the most nervous when people ask me for recommendations on stuff. Like, they'll tell me what level of player they are, and what kind of music they're looking for, and ask me what I recommend. I haven't learned all this music yet! Especially when it comes to string music, or percussion, or brass really. If they're a clarinet player, I just might be able to help them. Haha. I still don't know how much longer I see myself here at this job, though. I'm only working part time, and I'm not making a whole lot of money. I have student loans to start paying off, car insurance, and I'd like to start saving so I can live on my own eventually. And I also don't get any benefits at this job. So that makes it a little harder. I'd like to keep looking for other jobs, but I don't even know what I want. At least this is a place to start, so I can't really complain. And I get along with the people I work with, which makes such a HUGE differnce. If you work with people you can't stand, then you just dread going into work.
Wow, I don't update in like 3 weeks, and then I ramble on and on. I think I'm done now. LOL. I hope everyone else is doing well!
And I am also going to be getting more involved in my church. I'm gonna be a small group leader for the 2nd graders children's church. I'm really looking forward to that! It should be a lot of fun. And hopefully I will also be getting involved with the worship team.
Ya know how sometimes you just need a change? I finally cleared out my room today. It looks really nice. Hopefully this weekend I can go through my desk and get rid of a lot of stuff, and actually be able to sell my desk. I wanna get a book case. It will take up a lot less space in my room than a desk, and I have a lot of books and stuff that it would be really helpful if I could put on a bookcase. I went shopping and got a new pair of sheets (they're really fun) and I printed out a picture (my new icon (cross) ) and got a frame for it, so I'm gonna hang that up on my wall. That's actually a picture I took when we were on our way home from VA/DE...concert and beach. We were driving through these mountains, and the sun was setting. My mom has a little wooden cross hanging on her rearview mirror and I was sitting in the backseat, cramped up and bored. So I grabbed the camera and decided it would be cool to try and get a picture of the cross right in front of the sun. it was really hard cuz we kept going around all these bends and stuff. I must have taken 50 pics or so. I'm glad I did, though, cuz at least a couple turned out really well, this being the best. I think it'll look great on my wall. I also wanna get some glow in the dark paint and paint stars on my ceiling. Not little 5-point stars, just little dots. I want it to look like I'm always sleeping under the stars. I also want to get some of those hanging beads (hippie beads?) and hang them from my door. Oh, I also changed my LJ layout. Going along with the need for change.
Duck Ankles is the actual name of a song, in case anyone is wondering. I actually have it stuck in my head right now. It's by David Sanborn, jazz alto sax player. I saw him in concert a couple weeks ago. What a great ocncert! Got to meet him and talk to him a bit afterwards. That was cool. Told him I was a sax player. He told me about one show when he went through 5 reeds. Said he just wanted to commiserate with someone who would understand what he was talking about. Haha. I was like, "yeah, reeds are definitely a pain in the butt". This guy has been making records since the 70s, and he has at least 20 records, and I just had this normal conversation with him. It was so cool! He's very charismatic and friendly, very engaging. So then the next week I went and bought like 6 of his CDs (already had one) from amazon. I got them all used, so they were pretty inexpensive. I'm really loving them. I'm still torn about taking sax lessons. I'm still gonna buy a used sax from Volkweins. I can still do some playing on my own, but there's so much to learn that I prolly can't figure out on my own. I wanna keep my dream, and pursue it, to become a better musician, but I don't know if that's being too unrealistic. But hey, all these people that are recording artists and stuff now were prolly told all the time they were being unrealistic. LOL. I don't think I'm good enough though, at least not yet, to perform anywhere. I'd be more than happy to just play little clubs and stuff in my town. I've decided that what I want to do is open my own music store, but it would be a jazz store. And I would also like it to be an art store. Sell art supplies, as well as local artist's work. I think that would be so cool to have a store like that! It might happen, ya never know. I could take some business classes, maybe go back to grad school at some point and get a business degree.
But the more I think about it, I would love to be married. Have a nice little settled life. I dunno, maybe I'm not ready to be married yet. I'd be happy with a boyfriend though. I'm just a simple girl, I just want someone to hold hands and walk with, someone to talk to, etc. Someday, I hope. Although now that I'm not in school, I don't know where I will meet people. I'm sure I will, it just seems a little bit harder. And hey, according to Dr. Thompson, there's always alumni events. Hahaha. Something about "leftovers" as I recall. Yeah, interesting.
In other news, I'm going to another concert this Sunday. Eric Tessemer. Amazing guitar player. Plays a lot like Stevie Ray Vaughn, if that means anything to anyone. And also, the job is going pretty well. The woman I work with told me the other day that I'm starting to get the hang of things. Yay! It can be a little overwhelming at times, though. There's just so much to learn. I get the most nervous when people ask me for recommendations on stuff. Like, they'll tell me what level of player they are, and what kind of music they're looking for, and ask me what I recommend. I haven't learned all this music yet! Especially when it comes to string music, or percussion, or brass really. If they're a clarinet player, I just might be able to help them. Haha. I still don't know how much longer I see myself here at this job, though. I'm only working part time, and I'm not making a whole lot of money. I have student loans to start paying off, car insurance, and I'd like to start saving so I can live on my own eventually. And I also don't get any benefits at this job. So that makes it a little harder. I'd like to keep looking for other jobs, but I don't even know what I want. At least this is a place to start, so I can't really complain. And I get along with the people I work with, which makes such a HUGE differnce. If you work with people you can't stand, then you just dread going into work.
Wow, I don't update in like 3 weeks, and then I ramble on and on. I think I'm done now. LOL. I hope everyone else is doing well!