what a shitty-ass day
Gah, I feel like crap today. Just despondent and detached.
This morning I came into work and found out that I have to give up my office because the company is running out of places to put people, so I get stuck out in a hallway as is my proper place as a contractor. I'm sick of companies directly hiring every other position except tech writers, and I'm sick of being treated like I'm one step above vermin.
I'm 34 years old and I still don't have a fucking full-time job, I break down and cry at the stupidest things (like I'm doing right now) and I just generally feel useless and stupid. Don has made it clear that he doesn't want to progress beyond just dating and doesn't think he ever will want to, so I feel fat and worthless and ugly and shrewish and I'm just going to resign myself to being alone for the rest of my life because I'm too much of a fuckup to deserve anything good.
I hate my life.
This morning I came into work and found out that I have to give up my office because the company is running out of places to put people, so I get stuck out in a hallway as is my proper place as a contractor. I'm sick of companies directly hiring every other position except tech writers, and I'm sick of being treated like I'm one step above vermin.
I'm 34 years old and I still don't have a fucking full-time job, I break down and cry at the stupidest things (like I'm doing right now) and I just generally feel useless and stupid. Don has made it clear that he doesn't want to progress beyond just dating and doesn't think he ever will want to, so I feel fat and worthless and ugly and shrewish and I'm just going to resign myself to being alone for the rest of my life because I'm too much of a fuckup to deserve anything good.
I hate my life.