Random..I know
If I were to die tonight, I would want everyone to know how much I truly love life. I would want my family to know that they are number one in my life. I would want my mom to know that I know she deserves better and she deserves to be happy. I would want my dad to know that I understand why he isn't the perfect dad, but that I really do get excited everytime he wants to hang out with me. I want my siblings to know that I admire all of them individually. Cliff for never giving up. Dana for always being there. Sarah for being studios, and Molly for being such a bright person. I would want my friends to know that in my heart, they aren't far behind my family. I would want Matthew to know that I look up to him in more ways than anyone can imagine. He has always, and will always, be my best friend. I would want Natalie to know that she's one of the most intelligent people I have ever met, and that she should never be belittled by anyone and for her to know that I believe in her. I would want Bailey to know that she deserves everything in the world. She deserves the best of everything, too. I would want all my Spring friends to know that they will always be in my heart. They have made me who I am. I have never forgotten one of them, and I always am constantly thinking 'what if I didn't move.' I rarely get to see them, but I would want them to know that the times I did..it was like heaven. I would want Rachel to know that she is still the love of my life, and although I can't be with, see, or speak to her that she still means more than anything to me. I would want all my humble friends to know that because of them I have kept my sanity. I would want everyone to know that I believe in God, and although I'm not what you could call a 'Jesus freak'-I still believe. I would want my neices to know that I love them eternally and they brighten up my day just by me thinking of them. I would want to let all the people suffering in Africa to know that if I hadn't of died...that I would have helped them. I would be there for them, and I would have done everything in my power to help them. I would tell Sheeva that she's my idol, and tell her that I love what she did to change my opinion on middle easterns. I would tell Nikki that I wish we had never broken up, because I know that if we hadn't she would, in fact, be the love of my life. I wouldn't be hurting..if we were still together. I would tell Kristen that I admire everything she has done, and that she defines the word 'dance'. I would tell Melissa that she is possibly the most amazing person I have ever met, and that without her...I wouldn't had made it passed my 18th birthday. I would tell Logan that I wish I could have just as much faith as he does, and that I look up to him for that. I guess I just did?