Wow...what a nite!
Ever get that feeling where when u know something that could be potentially serious...or could get serious,but u can't tell neone starts eating u alive? Just becuz ur conscience is so guilty and u don't wanna hide nething from the people that luv u the most? Well thats what was happening to me. just knowing how much trouble i would be in if my parents found out jj had a kid was driving me crazy. I didn't want them finding out from like one of my friends, or even my sister for that matter becuz i don't know what i would do if they said to me u can't see jj nemore cuz i don't know what yall are going to be doing and i don't want u to get hurt. That would have just sucked. So yesterday when my mom got home from work i sat down and had a long talk with her about it. First i asked what she really thought about julio. Then we started talking about sex and morals, and how i have really high standards, and that was one of the reasons that j luvs me is becuz he knows that i won't be with him for the wrong reasons, unlike his last girlfriend. Then i just told her that yes he has made some wrong decisions, and yes they resulted in the kid, but he still is a good person, and he respects me and my decisions and he would never force me into nething that i wasn't comfortable with and that he wouldn't hurt me for nething. My mom was just happy that i got the nerve to tell her, even tho it was hard becuz she would have been pissed if she found out from neone else. She knows that i have high standards and i know what i want, so she trusts me to do the rite thing with jj and she doesn't have to worry about what we mite be doing cuz she knows me better than that. She also said she understands about making some bad decisions when ur a kid, and just becuz julio did make some, it doesn't change her opinion about him. she still thinks hes as wonderful and adorable as before. i was SOOOO relieved!! U just don't understand. well... bell rang, write more later.