My computer is being gay, I'm paranoid, & I'm mad at the world
I hate pretty much everything right now. I'm oober bitchy.
I'm running of of 4 hours of sleep, I was semi late for jazz this morning ( I blame the "no backpacks in our bigger class rooms" policy), I wasn't able to eat anything thing this morning rushing out the door, rushing out te door made me forget my lunch money, felt extremely sick & almost got sick all over Micha (spelled wrong, but don't really care), I had to wait a whole hour & 20minutes after school for my ride, had 45-50miutes to cook & shove my face with food & make it to work on time, got really busy at work & had to put up with stupid retarted rude people for 5 hours, had one funny phone call that made my day (sadly), went home & asked my brother what he did to get online as I was turning on the internet then got screamed at & it was blamed all on me, fix problem with internet, then got called a bitch by my.. well everyone who lives here (like they have room to talk), been thinking about past conversations with a someone & I am getting VERY paranoid in a bad way yet again....
So pretty much I have nothing but a bunch of complaining for today. Yes I know it completely blows, but yeah, there's nothing exectly "happy" at the current moment
Do you ever wish that you could be like a Ostrage so for time to time you could barry your head in the ground & bloch everything & everyone out?.. Well it's probably just me, but I've just beem so annoyed lately that it sounds like a good idea........... I love Andrew with all my heart & would do just about anything in the world for him, but lately we have had nothing to talk about, & I hate being the one who talks all the time. When ever we're on the phone, we tell eachother what we did & ask how eachothers day was (the answer for both of us is always"ok" all the time). Then we get off the phone & go online & try to talk more there.. It dosen't really work, we say & ask the same thing as we do on the phone, we have nothing interesting or really worth while to say. It's sad & heart breaking (to me it is, I haven't gotten around to talking about it with him yet). And it really dosen't help that I'm already the most paranoid person in the world, so I can't only but think of the worst things possible beacuse he's so far away(well only 30minutes but that's still 30minutes too far for me).... And then there are all of the people who fill my head with things that make me want to cry, & I can't do anything to make them shut up... "Yeah ya know he cheats on you" or "if he's not gettin it with youm he's gonna get it from someone else" or "he's probably not interested anymore" or "You knew where it was headed so just don't bother with it", & all the different series of what or who he's "probably doing" & all that horrible make me wanna go emo things..... Yeah just peachy, not.
Mean while I still do nothing all the time. My parents are somehow stil convinced that I hangout with friends all the time & I'm never home & that I'm on the phone all the time... Yeah Right! I wish I had even a little bit of a life. All I do is go to school, go to work, & go online. And half the time when I go online I put up my away messege & play a game... I have nothing even close to a life!!!!!!!!!!!!
Did I mention that I hate the world & everything just plain & simply annoys me.
I'm out, bye.
I'm running of of 4 hours of sleep, I was semi late for jazz this morning ( I blame the "no backpacks in our bigger class rooms" policy), I wasn't able to eat anything thing this morning rushing out the door, rushing out te door made me forget my lunch money, felt extremely sick & almost got sick all over Micha (spelled wrong, but don't really care), I had to wait a whole hour & 20minutes after school for my ride, had 45-50miutes to cook & shove my face with food & make it to work on time, got really busy at work & had to put up with stupid retarted rude people for 5 hours, had one funny phone call that made my day (sadly), went home & asked my brother what he did to get online as I was turning on the internet then got screamed at & it was blamed all on me, fix problem with internet, then got called a bitch by my.. well everyone who lives here (like they have room to talk), been thinking about past conversations with a someone & I am getting VERY paranoid in a bad way yet again....
So pretty much I have nothing but a bunch of complaining for today. Yes I know it completely blows, but yeah, there's nothing exectly "happy" at the current moment
Do you ever wish that you could be like a Ostrage so for time to time you could barry your head in the ground & bloch everything & everyone out?.. Well it's probably just me, but I've just beem so annoyed lately that it sounds like a good idea........... I love Andrew with all my heart & would do just about anything in the world for him, but lately we have had nothing to talk about, & I hate being the one who talks all the time. When ever we're on the phone, we tell eachother what we did & ask how eachothers day was (the answer for both of us is always"ok" all the time). Then we get off the phone & go online & try to talk more there.. It dosen't really work, we say & ask the same thing as we do on the phone, we have nothing interesting or really worth while to say. It's sad & heart breaking (to me it is, I haven't gotten around to talking about it with him yet). And it really dosen't help that I'm already the most paranoid person in the world, so I can't only but think of the worst things possible beacuse he's so far away(well only 30minutes but that's still 30minutes too far for me).... And then there are all of the people who fill my head with things that make me want to cry, & I can't do anything to make them shut up... "Yeah ya know he cheats on you" or "if he's not gettin it with youm he's gonna get it from someone else" or "he's probably not interested anymore" or "You knew where it was headed so just don't bother with it", & all the different series of what or who he's "probably doing" & all that horrible make me wanna go emo things..... Yeah just peachy, not.
Mean while I still do nothing all the time. My parents are somehow stil convinced that I hangout with friends all the time & I'm never home & that I'm on the phone all the time... Yeah Right! I wish I had even a little bit of a life. All I do is go to school, go to work, & go online. And half the time when I go online I put up my away messege & play a game... I have nothing even close to a life!!!!!!!!!!!!
Did I mention that I hate the world & everything just plain & simply annoys me.
I'm out, bye.