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funny, it's been a long time since i've been awake at 4:34am. longer than you'd think. i haven't been up this late at bard i don't think- our "late night" party nights go about as late as 1 or 2am, homework almost never takes me past then either. occasionally i'm up until 3 or 3:30 when i get home on a saturday night talking to people online. but again, rarely.
and tonight? well i just finished a paper. well "just", about 20 minutes ago. and i'm deciding whether or not i should go to sleep or just stay awake. see, i'm going into the city in the morning, leaving here at 7:30am. and i need to shower. badly. so that makes it necessary to either get off my ass and shower now or get up at 6:15, shower, get dressed, hand in my paper and be at kline by 7:30.
if i shower now...i'll be in bed by 5:00. ish. but i could sleep until 6:45. either way it's less than 2 hours sleep. but what could i do for two hours?
i'm sorta tempted to clean off my bed, sweep the floor, clean up my little hole here a little bit... but that pounding in my head keeps coming back and informing me that it WILL boycott. so i probably shouldn't.
so i send this out into the void of a early thursday morning, where my city is already starting its cogs into motion while sleepy annandale-on-hudson slumbers quietly under an unpolluted sky.
ask me where i'd rather be.
i don't know if i could give you an answer.
but this is my life now. and it's not something i'm dealing with or being forced to accept. i love it. i love being in the middle of fucking nowhere and making my own fun, relying on relationships with friends and the weather for a fun friday night. it's a new thing for me. i'm trying out this non-city, non-commuter, non-everything spinning out of control... well maybe that's a step too far.
in any case. i'm here. bitch.
and not going anywhere.
everything sounds profound at 4am, doesn't it?
hilarious.
hil-fucking-arious.
peace.
anna you're goddamn right bananana pauline henschel.
bitch.
and tonight? well i just finished a paper. well "just", about 20 minutes ago. and i'm deciding whether or not i should go to sleep or just stay awake. see, i'm going into the city in the morning, leaving here at 7:30am. and i need to shower. badly. so that makes it necessary to either get off my ass and shower now or get up at 6:15, shower, get dressed, hand in my paper and be at kline by 7:30.
if i shower now...i'll be in bed by 5:00. ish. but i could sleep until 6:45. either way it's less than 2 hours sleep. but what could i do for two hours?
i'm sorta tempted to clean off my bed, sweep the floor, clean up my little hole here a little bit... but that pounding in my head keeps coming back and informing me that it WILL boycott. so i probably shouldn't.
so i send this out into the void of a early thursday morning, where my city is already starting its cogs into motion while sleepy annandale-on-hudson slumbers quietly under an unpolluted sky.
ask me where i'd rather be.
i don't know if i could give you an answer.
but this is my life now. and it's not something i'm dealing with or being forced to accept. i love it. i love being in the middle of fucking nowhere and making my own fun, relying on relationships with friends and the weather for a fun friday night. it's a new thing for me. i'm trying out this non-city, non-commuter, non-everything spinning out of control... well maybe that's a step too far.
in any case. i'm here. bitch.
and not going anywhere.
everything sounds profound at 4am, doesn't it?
hilarious.
hil-fucking-arious.
peace.
anna you're goddamn right bananana pauline henschel.
bitch.