dream and phone call.
I had some weird dreams this morning.
I dont even know why.
the first one, I was on this road trip in Texas with Seth and maybe 3 or 4 friends of his. We were all traveling in this old van. Seth remembered a friend of his who lived in the area and thought itd be a good idea to stop by and say hi. because he does that. So we pull in the driveway and for some reason, I feel weird and dont want to go in. but I go in anyway. We go around to the back of the house and go in the back door that leads into the kitchen. Its cluttered and small. We are there to see Seth's friend Eric. We see some of his stuff lying around and Seth's phone number typed out with Seth's name above it, along with another guy's name and number below. Seth leads us into the living room where we find an older woman, maybe late 50's, early 60's,
so much for my dream. Ive told it so many times... actually only a few, but Im tired of telling it.
I dont want to go to home group. Im all upset now. lame. I wish I could see Seth. but whats the point now?
it bugs me when I ask him to repeat or explain something and he ignores it because I cant let things go. maybe not, and whatever, but I miss him. and I wish he had called me instead of me calling him.
Im not going to see him hardly ever now. Im so bummed out.
after he told me I dont let things go, and that he was saying no to explaining anything, because I dont let things go, he said that the conversation had ended. and I said, "I guess so."
I said bye and hung up immediately afterwards.
yeah, I was mad. Mad that the whole phone thing was me asking if he found a ride and such, then me going to the guinns, he made a joke that didnt make any sense at all. but after that, it just ended. Everything. there was just silence. he didnt have anything to say to me. But I didnt want to hang up because I want to be with him. ugh. and now Im upset because of the way the phone call went. I want to call him back.... but I feel dumb.
I dont even know why.
the first one, I was on this road trip in Texas with Seth and maybe 3 or 4 friends of his. We were all traveling in this old van. Seth remembered a friend of his who lived in the area and thought itd be a good idea to stop by and say hi. because he does that. So we pull in the driveway and for some reason, I feel weird and dont want to go in. but I go in anyway. We go around to the back of the house and go in the back door that leads into the kitchen. Its cluttered and small. We are there to see Seth's friend Eric. We see some of his stuff lying around and Seth's phone number typed out with Seth's name above it, along with another guy's name and number below. Seth leads us into the living room where we find an older woman, maybe late 50's, early 60's,
so much for my dream. Ive told it so many times... actually only a few, but Im tired of telling it.
I dont want to go to home group. Im all upset now. lame. I wish I could see Seth. but whats the point now?
it bugs me when I ask him to repeat or explain something and he ignores it because I cant let things go. maybe not, and whatever, but I miss him. and I wish he had called me instead of me calling him.
Im not going to see him hardly ever now. Im so bummed out.
after he told me I dont let things go, and that he was saying no to explaining anything, because I dont let things go, he said that the conversation had ended. and I said, "I guess so."
I said bye and hung up immediately afterwards.
yeah, I was mad. Mad that the whole phone thing was me asking if he found a ride and such, then me going to the guinns, he made a joke that didnt make any sense at all. but after that, it just ended. Everything. there was just silence. he didnt have anything to say to me. But I didnt want to hang up because I want to be with him. ugh. and now Im upset because of the way the phone call went. I want to call him back.... but I feel dumb.